Black, White & Grey

I began writing this post exactly a month ago. I took longer with it because I was navigating how to share the information. Like many of you, I work with spirit guides. There is some dissonance amongst channelers about what exactly those guides are. Some people say that they are angels, some say that they are deities or devas or ascended masters. Some will claim to work with the elemental energies, the faeries and dragons, mermaids, dolphins and whales. Others will outright tell you that they do work with ETs.

I would consider myself as someone who has connected with most of the beings named and then some. Some people think that every interaction we have is an interaction with ETs and that they project images into our head or consciousness of beings that we would commonly know as angels or Gods to make it easier for us to interact with them without our consciousness shattering.  This has certainly occurred to me, and most recently felt quite certain.

When I first began to write this post, I was a bit confounded by a fresh experience that I had. My friend was supposed to spend the night and I went to visit her at her job before going home. She mentioned that she would rather go home that night and it was no bother since I was feeling wiped out from a long week and completely under the weather.

That night as I was falling asleep I noticed that there was a grey alien in my bedroom. Now, when I say that there was a grey alien in my bedroom I am not being completely literal in a 3d way. I mean that I could sense and feel and see (with my mind's eye) the presence of this being. I have written before about the greys and their bad wrap. I have also shared about how one in particular has helped me for quite some time- for which I am thankful. I have also had the peculiar sense that there is some sort of ship above my apartment building in Brooklyn. I simply have seen so many strange thingies in the sky by my house to call them UFOs.  Anyhow, this grey kept approaching me and attempting to do work on me. I grumpily rejected it, telling it with my mind to go away. The strange thing is that it was persistent. It would not let up no matter how many times I said no- that I didn't want to be touched or handled that night, however I had the distinct feeling that this grey was trying to help me and that I had let it approach me and agreed to do this work. It just so happened that I was extremely sleepy and unwell and that combination usually turns me into a big grump. After several minutes of this back and forth I yelled at the grey and told it NOOOO. I got so flustered that in my mind I stated, "You know what, I am going to wake up right now and turn on the light and the minute I turn on the light you will not even be here." So I did.

I hastily threw the blankets off of me, moved my dog out of the way and turned the light on. I was in my room, alone- as I had expected. Being flustered from this strange interaction, I decided that it wouldn't suit me to simply go back to sleep, that I would rather get up and shake it off. I decided to do this by going to the bathroom though I didn't need to go. As I was crossing the hallway to the bathroom door, I heard someone's keys in the lock of the front door.  My dog quickly sprang up and started barking and I walked toward the front door flipping the lights on as I went. The door cracked open and I could see my friend on the other side. Seeing her was a relief and surprise since she'd told me only hours before that she was going to go home rather than stay at mine. We spoke for a moment and I followed her to the bathroom where I turned that light on for her and told her about what had happened to me. She gave me a hug and told me not to worry. Then the oddest thing happened... I went directly from her hug to my bed- supine in darkness. I awoke very confused by this, I was just hugging her, I thought.  I turned on a light and looked at the clock- 2:48, there's no way that she would be out of work this early. I got up and went to the living room but she wasn't there. It dawned on me that I had, A- been abducted, which makes no sense by the way, because I willingly go up to the ships at night and do work and learning, or B) this grey projected a scenario into my mind that would make my consciousness comfortable enough for the work I had pre-agreed to let him do to be carried out, or C) that my friend's higher self actually teleported to protect me and make me feel safe, or D) a combination of the above.

When I spoke to my friend the following morning she said that she'd finished work early the night before and a while before 3 am she had a very protective feeling over me. So as these things go, who knows exactly what transpired. I do know that the greys work with both of us, one in particular works as one of our shared guides, and others try to take her places in her dream time.

So let me pre apologize because this is going to be a long post, but I think it's important because I sense that many of us are being worked on by the greys right now.

Another time with another friend about a half dozen showed up while I was giving her a Reiki treatment. We both saw them and felt them. However this experience stands out because they actually entered our bodies. We were both a bit disturbed by this because while it wasn't violent or creepy it did feel like an intrusion. (This is when that post about contracts and pre-agreements comes in handy.) I spoke to a very lovely woman about this particular experience and she was able to figure out what happened quite easily. She explained that we kept nearing the energetic frequency that was necessary to perform the highest healing possible, but neither of us could hold it for long enough. Basically they entered our bodies to kind of up our frequency long enough for this to happen. Cool right?

So the reason I put this post off is because I still felt conflicted by all of this interaction with the greys. There is a spiritual war going on and most human beings are kind of like babies when it comes to using our full dimensional powers/tools to interact with higher dimensional beings.  It is important to be careful, judicious, and vigilant about who and what you let into your sphere. Not to say that you can't learn from having negative interactions, but the last thing I want is for destructive or mischief beings to be hanging around me- or any of you really. Your choice. Anyhow, I was sort of digesting it all. Digesting my own fear as well. Why do I have such an intense visceral blockage to these particular aliens?  I suppose we have been programmed to fear them... and no one is immune to programming. But seriously- it seemed strange to me that I just blocked myself from speaking on this.

And then yesterday happened. During my daily meditation I found myself in complete stillness until I began to notice many being convening and communing in this meditation with me. I saw the grey's face very nearby, sort of looking at me, sort of not. And when I caught his gaze I recognized this sadness around my heartspace. In the middle of my meditation I began crying, not tiny baby tears, but full on giant weeping, sobbing tears. I realized just how little I know about everything that is happening and how my fear made me act callously toward this particular being that has shown unconditional love toward me. I realized that everything we think we know is an illusion, an innocent way of trying to classify the divine in our limited human way, and acting in a childlike human way. I reached out toward the grey with my light body and circled him in my arms, he was "surprisingly" receptive. From the center of my heart that pain and fear that barred me from connecting to him fully dissipated into gratitude and love and appreciation, I couldn't believe that I had never consciously embraced this gentle being before now. As did this, I saw giant wings encircle my body and was literally surrounded by the many different beings that I interact with- even those I interact with only on occasion, my angels were so happy and supportive of this moment.  From my heartspace I also sent out waves of love and gratitude to all of them and I sent it toward myself as well, and my higher self and my physical body, for carrying me through this mission, for having patience with me despite the amount of "time" it has taken me to tap in and remember. Even now as I write, I am overcome by gratitude and humbled by the show of so much trust and faith and protection that tears are welling up in my eyes.  They are tears of love.

I have no idea what will happen in the next days, weeks or months. Life, as it becomes more magical, also has a way of shaking lose any expectations or plans that I had before this remembering. Sort of floating in between many things over here, grateful as anything to be alive, to enjoy the sweetness of breath and the ecstasy of my loved ones' laughter.  The more I know, the more I don't know, more and more I see that life is not in black and white, but grey. Grey is everywhere and everything, the harmony of black and white. The place where we shine our light.

in & out

Hi Everyone!

I hope you are all doing super well. So I am writing because some interesting things are happening much more commonly these days.  First off, there is this wonderful acknowledgment to anchor the energies that we have all worked so hard to build and remember by grounding ourselves.  A few weeks ago after a week laden with energy work toward myself and others my friend and I decided to do an Arcturian DNA activation for 12.12.12. In conjunction with all of the work that I had been conducting and receiving I felt that I had enough. I was spending so much time deep within myself and out of myself in meditation in the energy earth and I began to feel completely exhausted. This is to be expected since we were and ARE definitely seeing some shifts through the last months of the year, but it didn't feel honest. So I found myself doing more "earth bound" activities, more of the "mundane" as so many folks have advised me to do.

I have always found drinking to be incredibly grounding. But there is a danger to enjoying too many spirits... they have their own agenda and if you let them, they will gladly take over the space you hold for them and run amok.  Just like I wouldn't invite communication with every being, it's important to create those positive boundaries in 3d as well.  So, I don't want to get caught in the trap of drinking to ground my energy.  What to do? I ate sugar, that was cool until I realized that it was making my blood hot. I danced, well- I dance, but that certainly doesn't calm me down. I reground after meditation but I then find that I am generally uninterested in most things and it is difficult to have conversations with most people. I don't want that...

I started taking moldavite baths to make outer conversations more stimulating. But then people couldn't really understand what I was laughing about when they were talking to me about life things. I didn't understand either, I just know that I was enjoying myself significantly more. Follow your bliss, right?

Now I am settling and beginning to accept being in & out of this energetic space and not expecting myself to be one thing or another. Not expect myself to stay or leave, to want or reject... to be accepting of the fact that I am in between- sometimes being more there and sometimes being more here, and knowing that both are an expression of the same exact beingness. The idea is ultimately moving without judgement for myself or others. Sound familiar?

Speaking of in & out, another phenomenon that I have become aware of is A LOT of folks getting sick and being in and out of being sick.  Upgrades. Also, there is a high incidence of injury, Upgrades. And there is a lot of violence irrupting right now. RESISTANCE.

Breathe into the aspects of yourself and others that are resisting. It sounds silly- how do you breathe into others... but it's not. Imagine that your breath can create a more loving space in the part of them that is compressed and restricted. Ultimately it will be their freewill choice to receive this intention or not, but it is likely that you will be able to interact with resisting aspects of yourselves more compassionately after having set the empathic and nurturing attention around it.

Anyhow, a rambling post about many things- but I hope any of this helps.

Love you,
Nicole

Ascension

ascension |əˈsenSHən|noun [ in sing. ]the act of rising to an important position or a higher level: his ascension to the ranks of pop star.• ( Ascension )the ascent of Christ into heaven on the fortieth day after the Resurrection.
For about 2 and half weeks before the 21st I was plagued by knowledge.  This appears to be an odd statement because we often find that the more we know and discover, the better equipped we are to make decisions that are more equitable for ourselves and each other. 
What I am referring to in particular is the resurfacing of an issue that I thought I had released some time ago- feeling weighted down by knowing. Feeling proud of my knowing in a deceptive way, a way that subtlety leads me to believe that I carry the burden of a knowledge that leads me to a freedom that feels more like enslavement to my own mind. 
I am not interested in this slavery. We have learned so much in 3d and it is time to be fully compassionate toward ourselves. First off, to recognize that we cannot solely live in our heart or our minds, but in order to anchor the lesson of polarity we must accept that both the heart- the feeling and intuitive organ and the mind- the thinking and reasoning organ are equally as important as the other. In fact, it is the harmonizing of these two vital organ that allows us to progress and ascend. 
The night before I left New York City I went on three shamanic journeys with my girlfriends- fellow star seeds who I am incredibly fortunate to have in my life. The journey I led was a journey to reconnect with what our business was in Atlantis. While one of my friends was able to journey and recollect very clearly to what her life and job was like, the other found herself unable to fully go through the journey- instead being taught the nature of energetic exchange between two human beings and how energy moves in between two people. The movement of that energy is the shape of infinity. And it is clear to see imbalanced exchanges between two people when you practice paying attention to where the center of that infinity symbol lies in the space between your bodies.  
Our own bodies emit an energetic field similar in shape to that of the earth- a horus.  What is interesting about our chakras is that they each emit the same energetic field, creating an almost fountain-like appearance from each one- a field that defies all logic and gravity.  The REALLY cool part that became evident to me recently at "night school" is the part where between each chakra in our own body, there is a symbol of infinity flowing and present to harmonize the flow of energy between the chakras- so we are no longer dealing with a straight up and down flow of energy like in the old paradigm, we now have this beautiful OMEGA symbol that moves forward and backward in the space and time of our body, through the past, present and future that holds the life force in our energetic body and moves as we direct it to do so.  
This OMEGA symbol has become increasingly significant to me within the last few weeks because I have noticed it mostly in the passage from my brain to my hearth, converging as my throat and high heart depending on where my energy is.  In this meeting place I have discovered a space that I either didn't notice before, or that has only now revealed itself to me.  This is a space of deep trust in the environment I am creating around me. There is no scarcity here, and in fact there is much stillness. 
About two or three months ago I began knowing that I had already ascended.  I realized that our projection and expectation of what would happen on the 21st was another foray into the age of polarity, another opportunity to truly address our own mind and acknowledge whether or not it was in synch with our own heart. People really worked themselves up about what might happen- especially in the light worker community.  The experience of the 21st was so "disappointing" in a very 3rd dimensional way for many folks... but that is just it.
If we want to move past the age of polarity, we must embrace our 3rd dimensional expectations as parts of our former selves that urgently need healing and releasing. Treat it as you would a child, with great compassion... we are children in our galactic evolution. 
Lately I have received a great deal of information regarding about how I appear to people in their dreams, or as they're walking down the street or in their thoughts. And on the other end of that, I have heard "light workers" say things like, "I can't wait to teleport"... 
If you are fully expecting to teleport somewhere with your entire physicality than I suggest you connect with your guides and angels and ask them to help you let go...
The point of the higher dimensions, is that we do not need these meat suits to be present. In fact, most of you have recognized or thought or accepted that these meat suits are a projection of the density of the 3rd dimension. So... following that train of logic perhaps we could become less dogmatic about the way we think about teleportation, telepathy, remote viewing, etc. Chances are that is will not "LOOK" the way that we expected it to look because that expectation it fully rooted in 3rd dimensional logic and density... everything from here on up becomes and is much more subtle.  This means that we should truly pay attention to our need for "evidence".  The evidence of ascension is all around us and mostly importantly, it is within us.  
Many people have written about how painful their disappointment has been. This is an opportunity for you to recognize that disappointment as your own resistance to what it happening around you, to release your expectations and welcome the abundance of higher energies and consciousness despite that they may not have been what you envisioned.  
The very cool part, I sense, is the fact that things don't appear to be terribly different from what they were before. For me this means that we were already inherently divine beings worthy of and possessing the gifts we need to live the life we want to live- to experience the world we want to experience.  How cool is that?!
Please keep in mind that many of you (us) are currently in 4-D, this means that whatever your thoughts and wherever your energy- they will manifest much more quickly. Stay centered in yourself and in the vision of the world you wish to create, it will happen and the reality of your conscious desires may actually surprise you. 
We need shadow and light, we need knowledge and ignorance, we need fear and hope... these are the tools that will help us to truly build the perfect situation for ourselves. They will show us what we can leave behind and what we want more of.
Know that you are perfect, know that you are exactly what and where you need to be or otherwise you simply wouldn't. Recognize the illusion of "rising to a higher position" than the one you are currently in, one that was perfected by you and the great creator.
Travel in innocence and protection always.
My love,Nicole

We need more love

Our bodies were meant to hold an incredible amount of light. It is only incredible because few of us remember use how divine we actually are.

There is love encircling every last particle on this planet. Every last particle within us, it is what we born from and how we create. Some of us are resisting this love. It shows up as tension, as illness, as lack of synchronicity (ie. an "off"day).

We must look at ourselves. We must look at each other. We must look at a world- not an earth, because SHE DID NOT ASK FOR THIS, where there is so much death, where there is injustice and pain, where people are starving despite that we live in a world abundant enough to feed us all, where trees are cut down despite that they literally filter the air that we breathe- as a service to us.  We must examine a climate where most people are a paycheck or tragedy away from being without a home, or one where our food is literally being poisoned by the people we trust to protect our freedom.

We need more love. We cannot wait for this love to happen, we surrender to this love. We are creators. We can create an environment around ourselves and within every single interaction be it personal, professional, financial, sexual, consumption that is based in love... this is how your world changes- the vibratory effects subtly radiating outward toward and subtly changing the world.

Wake up to the love that you are. Every moment is another opportunity for peace. Come to it.

In love,
Nicole

Home

This morning I awoke with a sense of home within me. It's been a rough few months and I have found myself negotiating all of the new knowledge that is imparted to me from my guides- and probably awakening from within my cells and DNA, and the actual interaction with 3rd dimensional reality.

I have the same worries that many people do.  I worry if I am doing well at work, I worry about paying all of my bills, about whether I will have time to see the people I love and not drown in the minutia of life, I worry if I will see a good night's rest... but then there is another side of that.  It is not another experience entirely but an aspect of the same essence.  I know of another life, I feel it and hear it and taste it and live it. I am reunited with it whenever I set my intention to receive it.

My entire life I have felt that I have two homes. I have the home I visit in my dreams and meditation, the one where I see my families and my friends and my allies and teachers.  In this home I am unbound. I am the person, the being, that I have always understood myself to be. This is the home where when I see people and they say to me, "Hey, you were in my dream," and I know that yes- they did see me and that they also saw where the more complete me lives.  The one that has no problems traveling in and out of my dreams or anyone else's or different time frames or possibilities or even planets and universes.  Sounds outlandish- but if you are reading this blog then I trust it is because you are experiencing very similar phenomenon.  When my guides began encouraging me to write about my experiences they assured me that they would help bring people who could benefit from this information to me.  In terms of physics- I suppose that makes sense.  The frequencies find themselves, resonant energies of like and like tend to move toward themselves to create harmonics.  Magic happens in harmonics and I would like to talk about that and how to use harmonics to cultivate telepathy- but not in this post.

My other home is on earth with all of YOU who have chosen to be here at this time (THANK YOU!) and some of you who have been trapped within the cycles of re-incarnation due to what David Icke refers to as the schism.  (As a side note I just realized that David Icke posted the video on the link on my birthday... synchronistic much?)  Anyhow, I have had a fairly difficult time feeling at home on earth for most of my life.  I should mention that this is not because of my connection or lack of connection to earth which has often been my saving grace, but because I have had a terribly difficult time understanding people and their actions.  Evil has been completely obtuse and misguided to me and pettiness has been confounding.

Growing up I used to get in a lot of fights with my girlfriends... my Dad told me that the connection in every case was me, so it had to be something that I was (or wasn't) doing- which totally hurt my feelings at the time. It wasn't until I was older and I had re-built my self-esteem that I realized that he was right, I had the same (or very similar) drama with women and some men over and over again throughout my life.  But I also realized it is because on a fundamental level I JUST DIDN'T UNDERSTAND and I didn't want to play the game or interface with them in a programmed way.  So I was always left feeling kind of stupefied and hurt while at the same time being kind of okay with not behaving in a reductionist way. I learned to be okay with being alone. Sufficed to say that I want to be friends with people. The older I get the more I realize how valuable the human connection is for us to truly understand why earth chose us. I have made such profound peace with the earth and with people. I stopped believing that I didn't come from here- which is a pretty symptomatic belief for many Starseeds, but also one that bars us from connecting with our mission.

It's not that we have to "give up" the belief that we are from somewhere else- but we have to evolve beyond the polarity of this thought to recognize that we chose to come here and really be here AND the earth trusted us and agreed to let us help her. That is why we look like human beings (some of us more than others ;)) and we are composed of the same basic elements as the earth and we suffer the illnesses and defeats and glories that human beings do. It's the whole package. Coming from  a place of dominion with the earth we can do our work in a more grounded way, after all we have her consent as well as the universe's.  Lately in meditation I like to visualize an earth in each one of my chakras. I receive the most beautiful sensation of abundant gratitude when I do this. Yummy!

Anyhow this morning I had the realization that I do not have two homes.  That my body is my home, that my body is my home, that my body is my home. I carry the lineage of all of the lives I have ever lived, the wisdom of each planet, the generosity of all beings and the vulnerability of life, the strength of every star in the sky, every universe and color, all that I Am within this body.  And I accept to activate the pre-agreements that I made before coming into this life in order to my work.  Your body is your home too. Some people are pretty die hard about food and substances and exercise and blah blah blah- but again, this is 3rd dimensional way of thinking and when we disempower our food with our thoughts- we transform it. When we bless our food and we thank our food we recognize its own innate holiness and activate the gratitude within its cellular structure, try this for two weeks and you will notice a difference. The same goes for your body- use this to relate to your own vehicle and see what happens.

So I have to get moving but the reason that I want to share this post about home with you, one that I find to be exceedingly personal, is because of synchronicity. The other day on my way into the city I heard a man singing and playing guitar on my train platform. He was super good. I recorded some of it and I even bought the CD. I like the CD but the song the young man was singing when I saw him was the one I really wanted to hear. So after a little internal nudging I visited their website and one of the first things I saw was this song called, "Home". You all know how I love to be led by my intuition but this was particularly fruitful. So let's be thankful to the music.  :)

In beauty and peace,
Nicole

Prakriti

My body is your body
Some call the merging
Infinite with finite.

There is no separation
Purusha gave birth to the galaxy
And now the galaxy is pregnant
with a new hope
for Mother Nature.

There is no end or beginning
We cannot get home
without being home.

Polishing the Mirror of Self

Like many people on the Eastern Seaboard of the US, I awoke at 6am on November 22 and though bleary eyed, I held the intention of joining the mass meditation/clearing for earth.  My particular focus this day was to flood Israel and Palestine with light.

At the beginning of the practice I kept coming in and out of visions of walking through the streets of Jerusalem. I saw that people were afraid there, that they were injured.  I sent healing to those people as I continued to walk through those streets and alleyways. I saw soldiers lining the streets of Israel and I sent love to them, directing them toward the power of their own childhood innocence. I noticed almost immediately that there were others around me who were also doing similar work, some of them were human, some where not.  There was an incredible focus on clearing this stagnant energy. I found myself floating above Israel and Palestine looking at the desert.  I came in and out of complete stillness. The next moment I was in a dark room with a bunch of shadow figures that were surrounding human beings.  I instinctually began to tear at the shadows ripping them to pieces with the power of deep focus and protective peace.  Within the bodies of the men in the room, there were also tendrils of shadowy presences or dark spots that I also began to rip from their bodies-relentlessly pulling cords from their stomachs and spines.  Simultaneously there was a presence of healing entering the room and sort of holding the new them together as myself and some others were tearing the old them apart.  I found myself floating over the earth again and then I was on the floor, it was dusty and dirty and angry and exhausted. I realized that the energy of war cultivated by private interest and industry in this region of the world over several millennia had served to injure Gaia's aura.  I knew that she too would need healing.  I connected myself to Gaia's core and then to the sun and the galactic center, I envisioned a grid around the earth that was being activated and worked on by a legion of beings.  I began to focus so intently on this grid allowing universal light to pour through me into the space, the dirt, the ground- the particles of dust that had been traumatized by violent energy and repression until I felt three very powerful pink explosions. They resembled a nuclear bomb but had a contrary effect.  An effect of creation, of stillness, of untangling. At first the explosions occurred as though they were moving through me but then I also saw them happening from space. They served to empower the peace grid that has been encircling this planet to provide divine healing and harmonics and which is a beautiful example of the types of collaboration we will be seeing more of as our human species evolves and accepts ascension and our greater galactic heritage.

After the third explosion I found myself right back in my body in my bed in Brooklyn with my dog, ever my guardian, at my feet.  I took the extra time to ground myself well since this is only the second time that I consciously participated in this type of mission.

In the days after this healing many of my own issues with anger and frustration and even boredom have surfaced.  Similar to my experience with Reiki, I found that moving so much energy has a way of bringing any unresolved issues to the surface.  Rather than muting them, I let them live a little and maybe get the best of me.  In my awareness of this dynamic I won't beat myself up.  Being overly critical of my poor behavior is something the old me would do in the old way of thinking in the old way of being in the old world that no longer works for almost anyone. I feel genuine remorse for my behavior while at once being singularly grateful for my humanness. It's providing me with the opportunity to look at myself honestly, to see my reflection and polish myself. The beauty and grace of life is that  I don't have to bring these behaviors with me now that I am cognizant of their ability to be destructive to good things. Things that grow and things that nourish me.  What this experience provided me with is the opportunity to recognize that I still hadn't let these things go. And now I will. And I am so humbled and grateful to be trusted by so many people and by the earth and the elements and God to share these moments and experiences and memories with you all, even my weak ones.

Whatever is coming up for you right now, know that you are not alone. And ESPECIALLY those who have been doing clearing work for several months or years... do not feel defeated by these flare ups... do not feel that you have failed in your dedication- that is exactly what your ego will want you to think and feel to ensnarl you in your old way of being... that person is dead and whatever is surfacing now is just your higher self beckoning you to recognize that it needs more space in your bodies if it is going to anchor itself within your physicality at this moment in time.  REMEMBER THIS AGREEMENT and meet your challenges with joy... you are succeeding in your invaluable service of love to humanity and to the earth.  Our star families and inter dimensional families are so very happy for us. You are loved so completely. Swell in that love and allow it to sustain you.

Fear not.  Rejoice.

In radiant gratitude,
Nicole

Healing Hands

We are all healers. Though it is undeniable that some of us are more inclined to pay attention to the call of healing, it is clear that we all possess the innate capacity to heal ourselves, one another and our environment.  

In the United States of America we are celebrating the Thanksgiving Holiday this coming Thursday, November 22. I don't want to get into the politics behind thanksgiving but I will say this: we have the opportunity to make this day our own and it is also irrefutable that we all have a wealth of gifts to be thankful for.  

The last time I wrote a post like this was for September 11 and the healing circle that myself and two other women organized. September 11 was an amazing opportunity that we seized upon because it represented unique planetary alignment in this galaxy. Alongside many other people who joined us from all over the world we focused a staggering amount of love to this geographical region. I am still so humbled by the efforts put forth that day.  

November 22 affords us another such opportunity to direct planetary alignment to places on this earth that are shrouded in suffering. I would like to take this opportunity to create a call to action for all healers to unite their intentions at some point during the 22nd.  

For those of you who are not Reiki attuned, listen to your intuition and allow yourself to be guided by your own divine desire of service and resolution- you will find the words and the visualization to empower your desires. 

I don't have a set time for this prayer but it could be any time during November 22 that is convenient to you. 

For those of you attuned to Reiki please utilize the following invocation: 

Isreal, Palestine
Isreal, Palestine
Isreal, Palstine
Hon Sha Ze Sho Nen
Hon Sha Ze Sho Nen
Hon Sha Ze Sho Nen
Cho Ku Rei
Cho Ku Rei
Cho Ku Rei
Sei Hei Ki
Sei Hei Ki
Sei Hei Ki
Cho Ku Rei
Cho Ku Rei
Cho Ku Rei

You will know when to release...

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We were given healing hands so that we could heal each other. 

In love and gratitude,
Nicole

Chakra Balancing

Hi Everyone!  I am so excited to write you even if it will be a quick one.  I had an amazing weekend full of friendship. This is not always the case for me as recently my week sort of bleeds into my weekend and I find myself getting more work done. Anyhow, I am definitely making some positive changes and creating more space for joy to reign supreme.  Let's face, when joy is what motivates our life, creativity is much more fluid.

Anyhow, I was doing my dream work several weeks ago when one of my teachers brought to my attention that I can use my pendulum for much more than I was using it for- basic yes and no questions.  They began explaining to me about how pendulums are unique in balancing and clearing the chakras because they work directly with the body's own biomagnetic field.  This is interesting, I thought though I didn't get much more from that teacher at that time.  Within days of this lesson I was reading Conway's book, "Of Stone, Stick and Thorn" about Celtic Shamanism, and she was explaining about how chakra balancing using a pendulum is a common shamanic practice.  She said that you could use little pieces of paper to balance the chakras for yourself and that you would need to get the purest color possible to represent the color associated with that chakra to connect with that energy of that chakra in a balanced state.  COOL.  I did't end up going in that direction, I ended up working with my guides for protection and laying my own body on the floor using the pendulum and sensing the movement of the crystal through my various bodies.  It felt very pleasant.

I practiced on my friend and he also received the benefit and recounted that that night he had very vivid dreams that he could remember.  This is great, since he is only now beginning to remember his dreams. Anyhow, yesterday I had a wonderful day which included attuning myself to 3 alternate Reiki symbols in order to work with a client who was asking for a very specific outcome.  (We can talk more about these in another post).  I then had the session and then I spent the day with one of my soul mates and great friends.  We had lunch, played with cards, caught up and practice chakra balancing.

I can't speak to what her experience was but mine was excellent.  She comes from the Kundalini Yoga Lineage and in her approach she worked with several more of the sub chakras than I did- having focused only the 7 chakras we commonly understand on earth.  WHen she was working on my earth chakra I could literally feel this wonderful grounding and down sweeping motion that came to me in the rhythm of the earth's heartbeat.  I also saw* a lot of interesting visions.  I saw that the room was full of cat people and that my friend herself had the face of an owl as she was working on me.

The actual process involves several steps.  Because word and intention and setting your domain is so powerful, I always begin by calling in my guides and angels and spirit animals.  I invite my client's companions as well.  I offer gratitude to the situation and I offer it to the highest good for all- I learned this from my teacher, Brett Bevell.  In addition to these steps, because I am working with a new medium- one that came to me at night, I set the intention that the process be for healing and create a space where nothing can become imbalanced or injured by the experimentation.  I then begin at the base chakra and work my way up.  It's important to work with your pendulum to become aware of what means what... for me I allow my pendulum to spin or move in whatever direction is needs in order to represent the chakra.  I know from asking and communicating with my pendulum that once it comes to a complete stop- or as close as possible to one, that we are ready to move on.

So I work my way up the chakras in this fashion.  At the very end- the crown, I set the intention of sealing in the benefits of the practice and closing the energetic field.  This is vital because you don't want anyone walking around with an open aura- especially in New York City, but really anywhere.  You can say the words, "I offer this practice to the highest good for all and I seal this practice with divine love and wisdom."  Trust in your own ability to create protection for others (and yourself) and trust that when you are doing this work, if you create the boundaries wot work only with being who serve the divine law of one and the divine order- you block out everything else.  I have said this before, but there are thousands of beings willing to help us if we let them in.  Exercise being selective, since out of those thousands there are also some unseemly characters who will try to convince you that they are your friend.

The same friend that I was doing this practice with yesterday discovered in a past life regression that she had a tricky entity who she thought was a friendly spirit that was actually damaging her auric field and creating a feeding situation that funneled to a very negative entity.  SO, ask for protection and invoke protection.  The veils of reality are thinning more and more every day and we are starting to have an awareness of things that seem unexplainable.

God exists in all things, especially in you. Own it.

Be the light,
Nicole

222

Last night I awoke at exactly 2:22. I have been seeing 222 everywhere these days, but it was especially significant to me because yesterday was 11/11 and I made a big decision in my life. I have decided to leave New York City. Though I intend on coming back in March to continue my studies until summer, I feel a huge sense of relief that I will not be here for the winter.

When I awoke last night I was overcome by love. Deep love and deep support. I felt this love all through my body but I also perceived it as waves of different colored light washing over my body, lapping over any doubt or hesitancy that I might have had when I fell asleep.  This was such a wonderful validation for me. I realized that by staying here through winter and struggling to pay my rent so that I could be here for my teacher training, I was just resisting divine providence- thereby blinding myself from the potential possibilities available to me.

Sometimes you have to let go altogether to gain perspective.

Really quickly, I want to tell you about what to look for coming up:

Chakra Balancing using a pendulum

5 D meditation

and a special treat that I am working on...

an introduction to telepathy.

Let me know what numbers you are working with... numbers have a lot more to do with our "super" powers that we know. There is such a thing as celestial harmonics and many people who have had near death experiences will come back talking about the incredible music they heard... many shamans will also speak of such things.  Anyhow, each number represents a sound and vibration and tuning into the numbers and their frequency is probably the first level to unlocking your own unique super gifts.

Have a super wonderful day!

Love,
Nicole

Singing in Tongues

About 2 weeks ago as I was cleaning my apartment, I went into a sort of trance and began to sing. I didn't realize it at the time but for the duration of about 2 and half or 3 hours, I sang in a language that I didn't know I could speak.  I sang my heart, every worry or fear- every sadness.  It wasn't until days later that I realized what had happened. Recently, I keep finding myself going into these trance like states while I am going about my day. Then the memory comes back to me afterward and there is a sort of surfacing awareness of another self. Is this happening to anyone else?

Love,
Nicole

Clearing

I want to share with you something that happened to me the other week after I was performing Reiki and shamanic healing on some clients.  After my last client, who I was removing some angry cords from, left my home I was completely zonked out. I thought lazily, I have been clearing my apartment the whole day, I will be fine to just sleep.

Ha.

Around 4 hours later I was awoken to my dog growling and sitting on top of me.  I immediately got on my feet and turned the light on but there was definitely a presence in my bedroom.  My dog was looking around and sort of throwing her body on front of mine wherever I would move to. I sensed this terribly angry and sad presence sort of floating around the space in my room completely disembodied. The thing is, it COULD NOT SEE ME.  Which is why it hadn't attached to me.  And I must thank the lovely, Jenni McKinnon for making me invisible to entities that would want to harm me or people in general. Jenni is a very spectacular energy healer and witch and she works very closely with faeries and elves. She is also a powerful earth goddess who can teach us all quite a lot about our heritage and the gifts available to us... check her out for sure. Back to the tale of the evening... negative entity attachment is real just like our soul can fragment due to trauma. As my dog was was protecting me I closed my eyes and saw this truly awful thing sort of blindly moving about my bedroom looking for me.  I immediately called in my guides and the specific beings that I work with to help me clear the room.

When I called upon the aid of my guides and the angels, etc. I felt an immediate warmth enter my body and radiate from within it. I also had the distinct impression that I was completely safe and I was exponentially more powerful than this other being but that I needed to consider feeling like I need to call the calvary each time I might feel frightened or like I need help. Part of accepting my power is using it. We will leave that for another post, however.  So in a few short moments I cleared this presence out of my room and into the light.

I personally like doing this because I believe that when an energetic presence is as intense as that, it should be transmuted from negative to positive. Thereby having the potential to effect others as intensely but in a safe and joyful way.

Lesson learned. Clear your space is best practice.

Love,
Nicole

White Noise

For the last few weeks I have had a terrible pain in my side. A thorn that pricks me from my spine to the middle of my foot. On the back side of my body but also on the front. In Yoga the right side of the body represent Pingala, or sun-like masculine energy. The left side of the body represents Ida, or moon-like feminine energy. Similarly the front and back of our body represent the Gunas. In Yoga the front of the body represents Rajas, or the energy of volition. It is both an embodiment of the way we project ourselves into the future but also the way we project ourselves into the world. The back of the body represents Tamas, a resting state that can sometimes border on lethargy. The back of the body represents the past and is often the way that we see ourselves. The center of these quadrants is Satva, or balance. Satva is the unification of all of these aspects in their state of sublimation with one another.

This pain had made my life somewhat strange, certainly taking me off balance and making it difficult for me to see and interact with life in a way that is familiar to me. I have been speaking a lot about DNA activation and what that might look and feel like for most of you but one of the key things to keep in mind is that sometimes upgrading your software can be an ouchie. Especially if there is resistance within you to what these new possibilities represent. Higher frequencies attract higher frequencies and repel lower frequencies.

I asked my Reiki Master Class and my Teacher to perform a distance healing on me and the results were immediate and undeniable.  For the first time in weeks I am not in pain. I must say however, that in general I don't recommend receiving Reiki from 10 masters all at once unless you're dying. There might be a little humor in that but also the experience of receiving so much energy was at some points incredibly painful and disorienting. This was fleeting, of course, but for anyone who doesn't have much experience with it... start lightly.  The other side of that is the gratitude I experience for not having a pain in my spine and for feeling my SELF again. Today I am confronting a terrible cold and fever, which is a positive victory from where I am standing- since it means I am getting release. So much love to the amazing healers and masters in my life :)

Two things happened during that first session the obvious one which I spoke about was relief. The other was the return of a reoccurring dream, one which I know interface with as a memory.  In this dream I was with my younger brother.  He was not in the same form as he is now, but he was still the same exact soul.  Though on the outside of this incarnation I was a man, my soul self was and has been feminine. In this dream, where we were being held captive and our parents had just been murdered, I recall putting my hands over the front and back of my younger brother's heart.  As I did this, I felt an incredible pulling, or absence of energy, I kept my hands there to channel healing into his heart since is was shattered by the murder of our parents.

We decided to escape the situation and as we were moving from room to room we came into a corridor where there were several soldiers. These soldiers were not the kind that we see today, this took place several thousand years ago somewhere in the east (we were either Indian or Tibetan at the time) and the soldiers were dressed as Samurai but there was something more to them than just there weapons and their mastery over physicality.  With my brother and I was one other person, I am convinced that over person was also me- but as a spirit guide/ deity/ true self, because when I try to see who this person was it seems as though I am looking into smoke.  This spirit self was also the self that holding hands over my brother's heart since as I mentioned, I was a male in this lifetime. This spirit self is also someone that has appeared AND PROMPTLY DISAPPEARED to me while I am performing distance healing on other people. Anyhow, back to the Ninja Samurai people-right?

I knew immediately when I saw them that there was something else going on... It occurred to me at that moment that my brother and I, who have shared many many lifetimes together as siblings, were being held to be used as weapons. In the face of the extra ordinary threat from these captors, I became aware of a very powerful energy within my own being.  As the Samurais made their moves toward us I was encased in a violet light, the light emanated from within me and had this electric property. Within my own anger and urge to protect myself and my brother I drew my hands up and literally pulled the power out of the hands of the people threatening us.  Their power was also violet colored, but it was more attracted to me than it was to them and this made it very easy to remove. After this, I made a slight sweeping motion with my arm- as if to ward them off, and they all fell over very quickly giving us more time to run away.

This is when I awoke. Promptly staring at my hands and wondering what just happened. I have revisited this dream so many times in my life. I have also always been aware about my younger brother's abilities and his amazing spirit. Though he may not welcome exploring it right now and maybe not even in this life, I can sense who he is. Also, it is memories or "dreams" such as this one that illuminate why people might not want to take certain paths in their lives, being that the path of their own power and uniqueness brought them unimaginable pain in a former life. And truly, his heart was so broken that I felt like I was holding it together.

For some people dreams are like white noise. Somewhere in the background of their minds they are aware of the constant movement and static between particles but maybe they are not ready to go into it.

Awakening is important for humanity at this point in our galactic sharedstory but what is equally if not more important is respecting everyone's free will choice to observe these shifts the way that they want to. Each one of our souls has inherent dignity and is here because we are needed and we agreed- that doesn't mean that this evolution will look the same for all of us.

Follow the noise or don't.

Be in joy and be radiant, honor yourself.
Nicole

Who are you?

This morning I received a very clear message about the pervasive nature of Programming.  I have spoken about Programming before but for those of you who are just jumping on, Programming is basically the entire structure upon which our belief and thought system operates.  Much of our programming is inherited straight from our parents.  All told, it is a positive experience to be raised by people who love you and look after your well being. We learn valid and valuable lessons from them. We do however, also learn their unconscious and subconscious beliefs, their superstitions and idiosyncrasies. From them we can also glean gender role programming and success programming, the latter which become evident in the trajectory you are "expected"to take with your life in order to become "successful".

Television commercials teach us product programming, convincing us that we will need to acquire an object if we would like to become important. Even art and music and books are heavily laden with programs that teach us love in a polarized way, that teach us about death and life in a polarized way, that attempt to convince us that freedom doesn't come without great sacrifice.

Certain nutritionists will tell us that the only way to be healthy is to eat certain food groups and to avoid others altogether. The Diet program is most counterintuitive... we should consider humbling ourselves to the genius of nature. Why would we be born into a world where all of our basic nutrient needs wouldn't be met?  This is how the food chain works, if you use logic... it's an orchestra out there/in here.

Television shows and movies seem to be the most hypnotic programs we fall prey to. Something about the characters being so real, so compelling, and yet so flat and one dimensional at the same time. If you aren't expecting it, you would completely miss the fact that most characters are completely fragmented parts of a whole. But these things are layered. We slowly learn to become fragmented along side them. The role of music plays a large role, it is often thought the Lucifer was the Archangel of music. In many cults and many ancient knowledge holding groups this is still considered accurate. There have in fact been many prominent musicians that come out to the public fully acknowledging that they've "sold their soul to the devil", that they can't stop the song and dance no matter how old or tired they are. There are also many sacrifices in the hollywood music industry clans. No one is allowed to get out of line or speak up too much or else they suddenly become "drug addicts" or "crazy" as identified by the same exact people that were feeding them drugs and kindling the flame of their eccentricities just moments before.

One of the most disgusting examples of this is the Whitney Houston sacrifice. Yup, I said it. A day our so before her sacrifice Clive Davis (primary handler number 1) called Jennifer Hudson the new "Whitney Houston"... how obtuse I thought, being that Whitney Houston is still alive.  You can certainly do more research about this on the internet. As always I ask that you read through things using your heart's reaction as a barometer for truth seeing.

The message I received this morning has to do with something that I was involved with in the past, as in a past life... I had written a little about it a month or so ago... The Monarch Project. (http://nesara.insights2.org/Monarch.html & http://www.federaljack.com/?tag=project-monarch & http://mkculture.blogspot.com/2011/06/britney-spears-i-wanna-go-mind-control.html)

The nature of this message had to do with us accepting fragmented personalities as our own. Beyond that it had to do with sound and how when we here certain music or see certain patterns our fragmented personality that was or has become encoded into our brain through the hypnotic brainwashing of television PROGRAMMING becomes activated. When activated we make decisions that would otherwise not make sense to us, including associations, foods, purchases and actions. The message that I received from my guides was: "We love you all, please tell young people to be aware of the information they accept into their brains, tell them that they are more."

There was also some other stuff about characters but please meditate on this information and ask for help clearing yourself of any programs.

YOU ARE MORE.

Love,
Nicole

Choose Your Own Adventure

Hi Everyone,

I hope you are all well. We survived the storm here in Brooklyn and are getting ready for another quiet day off. I am going to post some more later but I wanted to share a message that I just received with you. Many of you know that I work with the Archangels a lot. I also work with my guides and the Ascended Masters and sometimes with the Galactics and Elementals... the usual- and it's available to all of us if-we-just-ask. This is the basis of my message to you right now. Ask for help but also be prepared to receive it. We live in a world of possibility and so much of what we allow ourselves to do is what we are told we can do. Few of us really think to venture outside of the rule program and create new possibilities, fewer of us think to do this with any serious conviction.

So here goes: Tell yourself you can do it, believe you can do it... be grateful that it's done. Watch as the miracles of your own manifestation unfold.

I am not saying that you are going to manifest a million dollars in your bank account, where we're going we won't need money anyhow. Money is an abstract concept meant to keep us in the frequency of the 3rd dimension and the polarity matrix.  Start small... ask for signs and ask for your heart to be humbled and receptive to the gifts that you have created so that you can RECOGNIZE THE MIRACLES before you. LOL.

Love yourself and be super kind to one another.

More later,
Nicole

The Water is Alive

Storms are amazing, it seems like a very apt time to share with you the message I received about water just an hour or so ago.  Water is a living and sentient being, not just an elemental force but an actual being just as any of us are.  I read this morning that the Masters came to earth to help clear the gulf oil spill.

Many of my friends and I have received messages about water. Sometimes performing healing in the water and sometimes given strategies to perform those healing and sometimes being taught to understand the true nature of water.

It wasn't until this morning that these messages became very clear to me. It certainly begs the question of how and why the powers that be have long practiced an incredible disregard for the ocean and marine life. It seems like an almost deliberate poisoning of our most precious resource. The fleecing of the ocean being dealt out by the same individuals who have guarded ancient knowledge and used it against the majority of humanity and the earth herself, this is no exception.

A few weeks ago as I was riding the train into work I received an intuition that trees are more complex than we understand.  That actually trees are an alien race that traveled from a distant galaxy to come to earth and protect earth and us in the battle that would take place between what people like to dramatize as a battle between dark and light.  God exists everywhere, everywhere. And especially in the darkness- perhaps that is where God is most present.

Anyway I got the sense that the trees, who normally take thousands of years to grow are literally being supported by the elemental forces and celestials to grow as rapidly as possible in order to balance out the climatization of the earth atmosphere (aura) (yet another target- with the depletion of the ozone layer) so that we can continue to breathe and that the earth can continue to breathe as well. It's a wonder that trees are also a major target on the hit list of industrial production... are we noticing a pattern?

The interesting thing about the ocean is that so much of marine life is thought to have also originated on other planets- this time in our very galaxy.

The other part of this download is that the living waters have even acted as a major influence and presence in the genetic experiment of human beings. Which is why our body is 80% water. I am still working with this download but I will certainly share more as it come in.

Stay safe to all of my friends in the Northeast.  Charge your crystals!

Love,
Nicole

Brilliant Colors

Good Morning!

I am sitting in my apartment in Brooklyn with the windows cracked listening to music and enjoying the crisp Autumn air.  Tomorrow we are supposed to be hit by a major storm, some call it the "Frankenstorm", and to be quite honest I am very happy for it.  I have been calling this storm for a couple of weeks, nice to know that it's finally picking up.

We don't understand human life.  There was a point in time in this blog where I wouldn't have outright made statements such as these, but the circumstances have changed and I have been called into more direct action. The more of us who are awake and aware right now, the better. The more that we can help others awaken from their sedated sleep program, the better.

We are taught to fear death from the moment we are old enough to have the capacity to learn fear.  Note that a child is not born into this world with the emotion of fear present in its emotional lexicon.  The child learns fear through observation, a concerned parent overreacting to what could have been a potential accident for the child- perhaps.

It's okay to die. Before we are born we are fully cognizant of more or less the life we will have and when we will have the opportunity to leave that life. It's more of a conscious decision than a sign on the dotted line dynamic... What's less of a decision is how we leave, which is why tragic deaths are so jarring to most people. Somewhere in our minds we know that what we in essence are lives forever... so not remembering that we sub or unconsciously remember this fact, totally blows our minds when we lose someone.

What aggravates our fear of death is the fear of death programming that is engendered to us through popular media, art, books and music.  Oh, and religion.  Religiosity is one of the cardinal offenders in the fear of death programming... not only is the scope of your life something beyond your control, but what happens in the afterlife- or worse, there IS NO afterlife, is completely not up to us to direct. Maybe we can even be punished for the ignorance we lived with.  What a load of lies that make us feel helpless and insignificant.

We can control things. We can change things. We can chose our own adventure.

So cycling back to the Hurricane Sandy, someone told me that 27 people in the Caribbean have died in association with this hurricane. I am not going to lie, that is sad. It is sad when we people leave this physicality, but they don't actually leave us. They move to a place that is everywhere and beyond our comprehension and reasoning when working within the 3 dimensional mind matrix.  This begins to change as you develop your intuition more and more and you open yourself to a spiritual life. You are going in that direction anyway and it's where we will all end up, so just know that it is available for you beginning NOW. A Spiritual life opens up the context on a lot of situations. Your experiences suddenly become less of a huge deal, not that you don't trip up, stop having bad days of freak outs or stop feeling. But usually when you interact with those emotions it becomes easier to let them go, after all in the grand scale of things none of it belongs to you truly so there is absolutely no reason to hold onto it. So yes, we must send love and compassion to the families and friends who have lost their loved ones, but we must also move on and understand this in the larger sense. Moments of intense emotion usually serve to remind us that we are alive, of the delicate nature of humanness, of the fleeting and lovely and delightful nature of existing in this reality where we are capable of feeling so many gifts, even our own sadness or loss. It means we love.

Most of you know that I am no stranger to chaos. Chaos as an extension of the cyclical nature of life. Something that must be destroyed to make room for something else can come to pass, to remind us that life in this multiverse is not static. Nature teaches this to us all of the time. If I look out of my window I can presently see the suicide of leaves from tree branches. It's fall. They will grow back, slightly differently- but with the same innate perfection, in the spring.

Both spring and fall are replete with brilliant colors. This is why there is an upwelling of emotion in our human language to describe the arrival of these two seasons. We understand* the significance of death and rebirth as a passage of life. Moreover, I intuit that the brilliant colors of these seasons activate us on a subconscious level to remember the divine vibrancy of life in the cosmos where even the blackness of space reverberates with the prismatic harmonics of love its completeness.

Lately I have been expressing to some friends and teachers that my experience of earth is shifting. Also, that my experience of people is shifting. There are moments when I am walking down the street and I don't feel like it is anywhere that I have ever been before. Everything seems healthier and more vibrant. The people seem more joyful and complete.  What does this mean? I suspect it means that in some ways I have ascended already. That I am seeing through the veils of reality and am no longer bound by what is available in the third dimension. But I am back and forth. Clearly I want to be in the 3rd dimension and I have work to do here that I signed up for.

Because I am negotiating how to keep my life in balance right now I haven't been writing to you all as much as I should or even want to. In fact, I have full on been ignoring some of the downloads I have been getting about messages I should share because I am so worn out at the end of the day. Ignoring these messages is completely counter intuitive since the result of ignoring my downloads is a night full of tossing and turning and not sleeping a wink. Suffice it to say I have learned my lesson.

Anyhow I had a download this week regarding an earlier download that I shared with you all about how in order to change the world and your own vibrations and understanding of the world, that you must begin living in your idea of the perfect world. Anchoring that divinity in the center of your heart and living in the gratitude of its existence. What this does as a practice is that it opens your perception to an expanded reality and understanding of dimensions: read you open a portal within yourself by practicing this sacred gratitude that allows you to travel within dimensions and possibilities. Including the 5th dimension, including 5th dimensional earth through the activation of your fifth dimensional self. In activation I mean, realization- since this 5th dimensional self has always existed and is not bound by these same space/time matrix that we experience in 3-D reality, all you are doing is recognizing that it is there.

The most astounding part of visiting 5-D earth is the brilliant colors. Today I heard an astronaut speak about watching the sunrise on earth from space. He said that he was absolutely dazzled by the spectrum and quality of greens and blues and pastel unlike he'd ever seen.

In a few weeks I intend on holding an event that will help us all activate the 5th dimensional self and tap into the 5-dimnisional earth space. As always, ask for help when you are doing this. We live in a world that is completely abundant with all forms of life, and especially now as we gather steam toward this transition- there are beings just waiting for us to ask for help. My suggestion is to tap into the Lemurian and Atlantean energy as well as the assistance of your particular guides or guardian angels.  The celestials are also available and so knowledgable as ever, the elementals. We live in a magical world, know that in your heart and go to it.

Travel in gratitude.

I love you,
Nicole

The Three Journeys

Several weeks ago, I attended my first Shamanic Circle in New York City.  It came to my attention that I had been practicing shamanism in various forms practically my entire life.  For example, to deal with some of the tension I am facing in my current circumstances, I have made an almost daily practice of dancing.  Dancing my heart out.  Dancing my spirit. Dancing until it feels that I have become liberated  and completely untethered.

Dancing is actually a key Shamanic Practice.  It is used to dispel energy, to gather energy and as an offering to the great spirit and the four directions.  The Shaman Circle was wonderful.  There were so many different kinds of people there.  I felt immense gratitude for the greatness and diversity of the group and for the key Shamans who held the space for us all to safely journey through the looking glass.

We were given three journeys that night.  The first journey was to find our spirit animal and ask it to take us to the place where all of energy is created.  The second was invite our spirit animal to show us what is holding us back from fully experiencing our joy. And the last was to journey with the Dolphins.

Each of my journeys was a miraculous gift of knowing myself.  My sense indicates that I cannot share the first two journeys with you but I would like to share the third.

In my third journey I found myself in Central America.  In one of those muddy, reddish rivers where the dolphins are white.  I became very confused at the sight of this and was quickly carried out to sea. I was floating, completely alone, in a very large body of water.  I was not above myself seeing down, nor was I below myself seeing up.  I was rather in front of myself and inside of myself at the same time.  All of the sudden, to the right of me a GIANT dolphin emerged.  This dolphin was the size of a blue whale.  I felt so small.  It began to sing in that very beautiful and conversational way that dolphins do.  As it sang the vibration of the sound moved throughout my body like lightwaves, creating a pleasurable and ticklish feeling.  It sang like this for a minute or so until it finally let out it's final sound. Upon emitting that noise the noise itself transformed into 12 dolphins that encircled me.  As they encircled me they began to use their flippers in a very forceful circular pattern, literally creating a beat with their flippers that was directed at me from all directions at once.  This had the effect of a very high pressure massage but it was made of the element of air.  It was somewhat pailful but I suspect the pain related more to the realization of the separation I had felt from the dolphins to that point.  At some point the dolphins decided to use the same methods but with there tales.  Flapping their tales in a synchronized way and surrounding me with the incredible air energy.  It felt like freedom.  Our interaction continued like this for another few moments until I reached such a pitch of joy that I literally burst out of my human body and became a dolphin.  When I became a dolphin I noticed that I had split into a smaller pod of dolphins and we were happily swimming together through warm, clear waters jumping and bounding.  It felt absolutely wonderful.

At one point while jumping I realized that we were very close to a shoreline where I could see the bodies of four individuals.  I looked at the sky and their were shooting stars all over the place.  It was beautiful.  My pod and I drew closer and closer to the shoreline until I realized that upon that shoreline, I was looking at my 19 year old self.  And in fact, I was.

When I was 19, my friend and our two boyfriends went and camped out on the Sanibel Causeway during a meteor shower.  It was incredibly beautiful.  As the sun was rising and everyone else was falling asleep, I stayed up to watch the sky become full of the vibrant pinks and oranges and purples of the Gulf Coast.  I could still see meteor zipping across the sky. And as I thought I might doze off, the most incredible thing happened.  A pod of dolphins approached the shore by where we were sleeping and began jumping out of the water.  An immense gratitude washed over me and brought tears to my eyes.  I felt that I was receiving a spectacular spiritual gift.  I felt so drawn to those dolphins and that they loved me.

A similar wave of gratitude overcame me during that last journey.  To see my self come full circle as a being willing to explore so many expression of creation and love... I am getting to know myself better each and every day.

Be kind on your journeys,
Nicole