Black, White & Grey

I began writing this post exactly a month ago. I took longer with it because I was navigating how to share the information. Like many of you, I work with spirit guides. There is some dissonance amongst channelers about what exactly those guides are. Some people say that they are angels, some say that they are deities or devas or ascended masters. Some will claim to work with the elemental energies, the faeries and dragons, mermaids, dolphins and whales. Others will outright tell you that they do work with ETs.

I would consider myself as someone who has connected with most of the beings named and then some. Some people think that every interaction we have is an interaction with ETs and that they project images into our head or consciousness of beings that we would commonly know as angels or Gods to make it easier for us to interact with them without our consciousness shattering.  This has certainly occurred to me, and most recently felt quite certain.

When I first began to write this post, I was a bit confounded by a fresh experience that I had. My friend was supposed to spend the night and I went to visit her at her job before going home. She mentioned that she would rather go home that night and it was no bother since I was feeling wiped out from a long week and completely under the weather.

That night as I was falling asleep I noticed that there was a grey alien in my bedroom. Now, when I say that there was a grey alien in my bedroom I am not being completely literal in a 3d way. I mean that I could sense and feel and see (with my mind's eye) the presence of this being. I have written before about the greys and their bad wrap. I have also shared about how one in particular has helped me for quite some time- for which I am thankful. I have also had the peculiar sense that there is some sort of ship above my apartment building in Brooklyn. I simply have seen so many strange thingies in the sky by my house to call them UFOs.  Anyhow, this grey kept approaching me and attempting to do work on me. I grumpily rejected it, telling it with my mind to go away. The strange thing is that it was persistent. It would not let up no matter how many times I said no- that I didn't want to be touched or handled that night, however I had the distinct feeling that this grey was trying to help me and that I had let it approach me and agreed to do this work. It just so happened that I was extremely sleepy and unwell and that combination usually turns me into a big grump. After several minutes of this back and forth I yelled at the grey and told it NOOOO. I got so flustered that in my mind I stated, "You know what, I am going to wake up right now and turn on the light and the minute I turn on the light you will not even be here." So I did.

I hastily threw the blankets off of me, moved my dog out of the way and turned the light on. I was in my room, alone- as I had expected. Being flustered from this strange interaction, I decided that it wouldn't suit me to simply go back to sleep, that I would rather get up and shake it off. I decided to do this by going to the bathroom though I didn't need to go. As I was crossing the hallway to the bathroom door, I heard someone's keys in the lock of the front door.  My dog quickly sprang up and started barking and I walked toward the front door flipping the lights on as I went. The door cracked open and I could see my friend on the other side. Seeing her was a relief and surprise since she'd told me only hours before that she was going to go home rather than stay at mine. We spoke for a moment and I followed her to the bathroom where I turned that light on for her and told her about what had happened to me. She gave me a hug and told me not to worry. Then the oddest thing happened... I went directly from her hug to my bed- supine in darkness. I awoke very confused by this, I was just hugging her, I thought.  I turned on a light and looked at the clock- 2:48, there's no way that she would be out of work this early. I got up and went to the living room but she wasn't there. It dawned on me that I had, A- been abducted, which makes no sense by the way, because I willingly go up to the ships at night and do work and learning, or B) this grey projected a scenario into my mind that would make my consciousness comfortable enough for the work I had pre-agreed to let him do to be carried out, or C) that my friend's higher self actually teleported to protect me and make me feel safe, or D) a combination of the above.

When I spoke to my friend the following morning she said that she'd finished work early the night before and a while before 3 am she had a very protective feeling over me. So as these things go, who knows exactly what transpired. I do know that the greys work with both of us, one in particular works as one of our shared guides, and others try to take her places in her dream time.

So let me pre apologize because this is going to be a long post, but I think it's important because I sense that many of us are being worked on by the greys right now.

Another time with another friend about a half dozen showed up while I was giving her a Reiki treatment. We both saw them and felt them. However this experience stands out because they actually entered our bodies. We were both a bit disturbed by this because while it wasn't violent or creepy it did feel like an intrusion. (This is when that post about contracts and pre-agreements comes in handy.) I spoke to a very lovely woman about this particular experience and she was able to figure out what happened quite easily. She explained that we kept nearing the energetic frequency that was necessary to perform the highest healing possible, but neither of us could hold it for long enough. Basically they entered our bodies to kind of up our frequency long enough for this to happen. Cool right?

So the reason I put this post off is because I still felt conflicted by all of this interaction with the greys. There is a spiritual war going on and most human beings are kind of like babies when it comes to using our full dimensional powers/tools to interact with higher dimensional beings.  It is important to be careful, judicious, and vigilant about who and what you let into your sphere. Not to say that you can't learn from having negative interactions, but the last thing I want is for destructive or mischief beings to be hanging around me- or any of you really. Your choice. Anyhow, I was sort of digesting it all. Digesting my own fear as well. Why do I have such an intense visceral blockage to these particular aliens?  I suppose we have been programmed to fear them... and no one is immune to programming. But seriously- it seemed strange to me that I just blocked myself from speaking on this.

And then yesterday happened. During my daily meditation I found myself in complete stillness until I began to notice many being convening and communing in this meditation with me. I saw the grey's face very nearby, sort of looking at me, sort of not. And when I caught his gaze I recognized this sadness around my heartspace. In the middle of my meditation I began crying, not tiny baby tears, but full on giant weeping, sobbing tears. I realized just how little I know about everything that is happening and how my fear made me act callously toward this particular being that has shown unconditional love toward me. I realized that everything we think we know is an illusion, an innocent way of trying to classify the divine in our limited human way, and acting in a childlike human way. I reached out toward the grey with my light body and circled him in my arms, he was "surprisingly" receptive. From the center of my heart that pain and fear that barred me from connecting to him fully dissipated into gratitude and love and appreciation, I couldn't believe that I had never consciously embraced this gentle being before now. As did this, I saw giant wings encircle my body and was literally surrounded by the many different beings that I interact with- even those I interact with only on occasion, my angels were so happy and supportive of this moment.  From my heartspace I also sent out waves of love and gratitude to all of them and I sent it toward myself as well, and my higher self and my physical body, for carrying me through this mission, for having patience with me despite the amount of "time" it has taken me to tap in and remember. Even now as I write, I am overcome by gratitude and humbled by the show of so much trust and faith and protection that tears are welling up in my eyes.  They are tears of love.

I have no idea what will happen in the next days, weeks or months. Life, as it becomes more magical, also has a way of shaking lose any expectations or plans that I had before this remembering. Sort of floating in between many things over here, grateful as anything to be alive, to enjoy the sweetness of breath and the ecstasy of my loved ones' laughter.  The more I know, the more I don't know, more and more I see that life is not in black and white, but grey. Grey is everywhere and everything, the harmony of black and white. The place where we shine our light.