The Grey

Reiki Master Training deepened my lifelong practice of magic in very tangible ways.  I don't mean magic like black nail polish and animal sacrifice, not that I am judging, but more of the know what is going to happen before it happens, read people's minds, see things that others don't kind of magic.  During my first attunement I very clearly saw myself in a circular formation with 11 other people.  This wasn't actually happening since I was sitting in a chair with 30 some other people around me, but I saw myself and the others.  In front of each of us there was a marble pillar and atop the pillar was an element and we had all removed the prospective element we were working with from their pedestals and were levitating them in front of us and transforming them into certain shapes.  I was working with a metal, though I am not quite sure which kind, and I had transformed it into a cube.  I was using Reiki and Alchemy to do this. Everyone in the circle was dressed in the same uniform, a long blue silk robe and we all had gold jewelry.  I get the impression that we were a part of an "order", not the first past life memory where I was a part of an order, but I digress.  Anyhow, as I was revisiting that memory I saw that we were in Atlantis.  Yes, Atlantis.  It was beautiful.  As soon as I realized where I was I was sucked out of the memory.  Later in the weekend I met two of my Reiki Guides*.  One is a tree, a tree that I have met here on earth and that I used to run away to whenever I needed help.  It was a very moving reunion that helped me to remember and be humble to the fragility of life. The other is a small and beautiful blue Humanoid named Syenah, pronounced Sigh, N, Ah, though Syenhah is androgynous, he is ever so slightly more male than female.  My friend had drawn me a picture of Syenah a few weeks prior, as he appeared to her when I was doing energy work on her.  He had also appeared to me several times in meditation, but I wasn't quite ready to see him clearly until I did.  Syenah is very special to me, all of my guides are.

My Reiki teaching guides are a little different from my practicing guides and I am still integrating with them so I will leave any talk about them until we have shared more conscious time together. During my Master Level Attunement I was visited by many beings.  I was given the gift of Tarot, or perhaps urged to reclaim it, I began receiving very clear messages from the angels that I work with, and I was contacted by different Deities and Beings of Light.  To sum it all up, it was pretty friggin awesome... :).  Anyhow, after training I began seeing the face of a grey in my meditations.  Last week I almost pulled my neck and while one of my teachers was working on soothing the pain, this same grey approached me from the right and asked if he could help to heal me.  I asked him who he was and he responded simply, "I am the grey."  Now many of us have issues about the Grey** or Zeta Riticuli star race because they have been crazy to us in the past, but they have not been able to perform any of their sickening experiments since the Galactic Federation of Light intervened on our behalf in the 1990s.  The fact of the matter is that there are two different types of Greys and most of them are benevolent anyway.  The Greys face a unique conundrum in our galaxy, that is their potential extinction.  Perhaps this will help you be more sympathetic to the idea that they have needed to use our genes in order to survive as a dying race.  As a whole, they are invaluable to us.  They have mastered so many aspects of existence that have been applied (though not to their full capacity) to enrich our lives.  The Greys are most often portrayed in Hollywood movies as a terrible, gruesome and destructive race, but we need to let our hearts and inner ears guide us on how to deal with its information.  Hollywood definitely has an agenda to push and a reason why it is better to leverage us against ETs, but I will leave the conspiracy talk to other websites.  I am not going to lie and say that I have never been afraid of our Star Family, if you read this blog you know that is not the case.  There are so many gorgeous and diverse races out in the multiverse and some of them are so completely different looking than us.  It can easily become overwhelming, I think this is why so many of them appear or make contact with us when our eyes are closed or we are sleeping- they are empathetic about the way we experience our feelings.  It's sweet.

 My guides tell me that more and more of us who are awakening will be receiving contact, use your judgement to navigate this contact and recognize that freewill is the ONLY LAW IN THE UNIVERSE, exercise it.  As for my Grey friend, thank you for helping me heal and thank you for showing up yesterday when I was at the dentist and for whispering in my ear just now as I was typing this.





Nanu Nanu!
Nicole

*Guides who assist you in the transmission of Reiki.

**Scary Mutha fuggin Aliens (NOT!)

The World is an Oyster, The World is a Pearl

People have quite a lot of heavy issues surfacing these days.  I talk about love and compassion and self-acceptance on this blog but I realized that I am not providing ways in which you might actually begin to practice this.  So first, thank you for your patience as I fumble my way through organizing my thoughts to share them with you and secondly, here is a method for dealing with dramatic or frenetic or destabilizing eruptions that I have been encouraging among my friends, students and clients.





Grab a pen and paper and write this exercise down.

Clear your mind.

Begin to notice your breath and your heartbeat.

Imagine that you can feel your breath inhaling and exhaling from the center of your heart.

Center yourself in that rhythm, in the inspirations and aspirations, but also in the pauses between the two.

Take note of any energetic changes occurring as you connect with your heart.

Begin to think about the ideal world that you want to live in.

Imagine that there are no constraints, no limitations, no consequences.

If you were free to do whatever, be whoever, go wherever...

Write down the following:

What does this world you imagine look like. What does it feel like, smell like, taste like, act like, sound like?

Create from a place of abundance and not scarcity, i.e. "I wouldn't want to do this anymore."

Be as creative as you wish, but speak from your heart.

Allow your truth to emerge without restraint.

Leave the meditative writing and sit quietly.

After a few minutes read what you just wrote.

At the beginning of your writing address your message as a letter beginning with, "Dear Heart,".

At the end of your writing address your message as a letter, ending with, "All my love, YOUR NAME."

You will be astounded by how little you need when you are being honest with yourself.  People often talk about this "big moment" when the world is going to change as if it is something we should sit around and wait for.  The truth is that the world is constantly changing and we influence those shifts profoundly more than we give ourselves (or than we have been given) credit for.  Empower yourself.  If you want to change the world, change your life, change a situation, begin by living in the ideal version of your ideal world within your own heart.  You will be amazed at how many miracles will start to unfold all around you.

Hari Om, Om Tat Sat,

Nicole

September 11 Memorial

As many of you know, I live in New York City.  I moved here around 8 years ago and have participated in the most significant love/hate relationship of my life.  It's as though I had to come to this place to learn the lessons of polarity in a major way.  I no longer hate New York and I no longer love New York, or maybe I do both but I just don't attach that much to actually experiencing those extremes any longer.  Back to the point, as for many of you September 11 was an incredibly trying moment in my life.  It isn't just the fact that so many people died that day which is a tragedy within itself, but the months and years of wars to follow resulting in the deaths of tens on thousands of people.  This changed the vibration of earth, in a deeply spiritual way-it has made us all sick, many of us aren't even aware.

Much is to be said about the conflicting opinions on the forces that drove 9/11, and I certainly honor that we all have our own politics, ideas and theories about why the event happened.  I also understand that our opinions are significantly more sharpened regarding what motivated the war that we are still somewhat engaged in to this day, however I am bringing light to September 11 for what I believe to be a very important reason.
Sunday, on my way into the city I accidentally missed my change in trains and ended up having to change at Fulton St.  For those of you who don't live here, the Fulton St, Cortland St and Chambers St Stations were the Subway Stations most violently effected by the collapsing of the twin towers, they are also the stations that lead to the 9/11 memorial.  Anyhow the walk from one train to a different train line in the Fulton St Station can be quite a hike, what I experienced that I haven't experienced before is the constant movement of entities around me.  I literally felt a sort of oppression in my breathing, and felt as though beings were putting their hands through me.  Every few seconds were new goose bumps from where something else had just touched me.  What I felt very prevalently is an immense sense of sadness, at some point I recognized that I needed to stand still and allow myself to be surrounded.  My husband was standing next to me and though he could sense that something was happening he wasn't himself experiencing it.  I decided to help these beings go home by creating a Reiki Portal.  Using Hon Sha Ze Sho Nen, Cho Ku Rei and Sei Hei Ki I opened a portal through space and time providing them safe passage for their journey home.   After a few minutes I felt the absence of movement and a stillness that pervaded the space around me.  It worked.  I am writing this because I realize that there is still a great deal of healing that needs to be focused around September 11.  On the surface it would appear that the friends and families of victims of September 11 are contained to mostly residents of New York, but I sense that this dynamic must be understood in a more layered manner.  That in a more profound way we were all made to be victims of what happened that day.  This message does not serve to take any validity away from those were affected first hand, but acknowledge the rest of us who have lovingly suffered these losses alongside them, in our own ways.

For this end I would like to put together a Mass Reiki Healing Circle and for those of you who are not Reiki practitioners, the power of your prayers and your intentions are invaluable to this effort.  I will physically be at 9/11 memorial on September 9 at 2pm and I will begin a Reiki healing a 2:15pm EST. I invite you all to shine your light onto this shadow that still looms over our nation and humanity.  We can change this for the better, we can heal this situation, we can be united.


*please see note below


*If this conversation sparks up a need to share your experience surrounding these issues, please do so. I know that it remains a loaded memory for many people.  I will encourage that everyone be compassionate toward the experience of others, this is a safe place to share.

future past

Yesterday a very dear friend of mine surprised me by gifting me one of her childhood paintings.  It was so thoughtful, and the painting itself resonates with me a lot.  When she gave it to me she said, " I painted this for you when I was 8 years old".  We are all familiar with that sentiment, yes?  At some point in time we are walking though a store and we pick up something, a piece of clothing or some pretty object that we understand isn't quite ours and yet it's something we are compelled to bring with us.  And then while speaking with a friend, acquaintance or family member they suddenly mention needing or wanting the item you just so happen to have.  This has happened to me before I have even met people before.  Almost like I was collecting a small treasure trove and waiting to meet them to present them with their items.  Kind of ties into past lives, I guess.  Anyhow my friend's painting is so beautiful and though I didn't tell her this when she gave it to me because I was so stunned, I had been thinking expressly about childhood paintings for the last few weeks and how I would like to have some of my own.  Isn't that a lovely synchronicity?  Even though I recognize that at the root of synchronicity is a profound trusting of the universe and those around you I am always so pleasantly surprised and deeply grateful for the care I am shown.

My friend and I have been talking quite a lot about the time matrix.  That time is not fixed or strict but a somewhat malleable tool for experiencing life.  My guides tell me that our understanding of time is very limited and that the institution of time has been widely used against us as a tool for control.  When we tap into the other dimensions we begin to realize just how much this rings true.  We are able to sense our conscious presence in many different timelines, sometimes intersecting, sometimes alternating.  Using this logic gifts from the past don't really come as a total surprise.  One thing that I have been playing with is receiving gifts from the future.  Namely I have been sending Reiki to my past using Hon Sha Ze Sho Nen.

A few weeks ago after a particularly stressful day I experienced a sudden jolt of Reiki while sitting at my desk.  I looked around to see if anyone else was feeling anything similar.  And then I thought, "who is sending me this gift?"  I hadn't given anyone permission to send me Reiki whenever they wanted to.  So that left me with only one possibility, I had sent it to myself from the future.  Wowee.  As soon as I realized this memories of receiving Reiki flashed across the screen of my mind.  There was one time in particular a few years back when I was extremely ill from a tick bite.  My husband, who was then my boyfriend, and I were laying in bed and I was burning up.  I suddenly noticed that my breathing began to adjust and within a few moments of following my own breathing I received a surge of light throughout my entire being.  It was a warm light that burned so brightly and vibrated so quickly that I actually began to tremble.  It was as though the Reiki was moving to spots of my body where there was a concentration of Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever and when it arrived it broke apart the illness and I would convulse.   Afterward I asked my husband if he had felt anything other than my body shaking, he told me his ears got very plugged.

There were also times in my childhood when I dealt with severe trauma that I can recall receiving Reiki from "out of nowhere".   It's nice to know the providence of these things that are, after all, gifts from the divine.  Welcome receptivity to your life and you will access the gifts you have always had that were waiting to be opened.

Live long and prosper,
Nicole

Empire State

Hi,  I want to share a note that I wrote a little over a year ago about the Norway shooting.  This site tends not to focus too much upon the negative or tragedies or angry making topics but that is not because I don't recognize that they exist.  I absolutely do and I see them as a vital manifestation of how humanity wishes to experience itself at this time.  Now this opens the door to understanding that within the same plane of existing, which is to say, within the same dimension we are able to narrow our focus.  That focus may be completely different than someone else's.  So here we begin to unpack the possibilities of what ascension means.  Many of our teachers have acknowledged that some of us have begun to, or have already, ascend(ed) from 3-D to 4-D, or 5-D.  The Ascended Masters are also very specific in addressing that within each dimension there are sub planes of possibilities.  This leads us to the understanding that while some of us may be opting out from a state of violence or a state of attaching to drama within that very same sphere others can pursue injury to themselves or others.

Yesterday in the morning a man went to the Empire State building and went on a bit of a shooting spree.  How odd I thought, until I realized the magnitude of what this means for our current evolution.  The Masters and Galactics remind us that we chose what dimension or state of consciousness we exist in based on our own individual frequency or vibration level.  Shootings are scary, they are also sad, they also make people angry and all of those feelings hold their own frequency.  They are impossible to ignore.  It's very important to allow ourselves to fully experience our emotions including the ones I just mentioned, despite the fact that they hold a lower density and quite frankly serve the purpose of bringing us down.  The point is that we can't ignore our own shadow. It's okay to interact with feeling down, but that interaction doesn't own you, it is not you at the very basis of your being.  Ignoring it, ignoring our feelings or the fact that things piss us off or hurt us terribly actually transforms the memory that brought us to the reaction in the first place.  As that memory mutates it sinks deeper into our subconscious mind and sometimes into our cells, blood and bones.  Ignoring the feelings or signs we receive from our physical, subtle, mental and emotional body is the root of dis-ease, reacting can save or enrich your life.  But then let it go, know that behind every storm the sky is a still and peaceful blue space- it is immovable.

People criticize light workers as "hippies" or people that just want to focus on peace.  They criticize people for meditating too much- they project that we are just "escaping". I would like to speak on behalf of these groups who allow themselves the opportunity to practice peace through meditation or other pursuits, not in defense of but in proclamation for.  Meditation and other energy work is not escaping, its inscaping.  It's inward travel that allows us to merge all fragments of ourselves.  The violent one, the righteous one, the teacher, the friend, the parent or child, the bitch, the saint.  Practicing ahimsa* allows you to access a clarity where you can call out all out to all of those fragmented parts of yourself and not become angry or injurious when it is very clear that you still embrace the ego self, the judgement, the anger, the drink, the sex, the cupcake.  Whatever is supposedly  "bad" or "sinful" or what we "shouldn't be engaging with" as enlightened individuals.   Leave all that duality bullshit to the politicians.  And even then, wish that they find peace.  We are a fully feeling and experiencing people, that is the gift of life and of passing through this age of polarity.  We emote in the spectrum of the rainbow, look how many different kinds of birds there are- and they are all just birds.  When tragedy strikes people who have a practice of peace or stillness are able to be stay centered in ourselves.  We observe our feelings or reactions with a sense of security and we accept that whatever just happened is something that we still need to learn from.  The resistance of this acceptance ultimately creates more pain and more suffering, so we surrender.  We can maintain a state of wholeness, despite injury.  Thank God for that.  It is possible that this is what the Ascended Masters and Galactics are alluding to when they repeat that many individuals are already on the ascension path.  It stands to reason that we are having difficulty digesting that because we are waiting for some grand gesture of physical evidence even though it is quite obvious that internally many are returning to a radiance of being that feels like home.

Having a daily practice is not about being or feeling better or more evolved than other people, I don't buy into that hierarchy- which actually separates us even more. We have chosen to maintain a certain frequency (or to elevate that frequency) and to respect others for choosing whatever frequency they have chosen too, try to enjoy the dance even when you don't any the song.  This whole life is just the divine experiencing itself in many different ways, no one way is better than the other.  Sure, some can be more harmful and others can be more helpful but at the end of the day we are all traveling in the same direction. I believe that tragedy is a wonderful platform for unity.  Unifying our experiences in effort to realize that we are each a fiber in the fabric of humanity and that we need one another to keep it together.

One of my teachers says to stay close, that if we move too far out we could get lost.  I re-read the below message today with that sentiment in mind.  We need one another to keep it together.

I love you,
Nicole

In light of what has happened in Norway I find myself asking my heart how to move on.   Our only true recourse against a show of hatred to this magnitude is to continue to love.  Beyond loving ourselves and our friends and family, we must search ourselves with the greatest discrimination and capitulate to loving those who are nothing like we are, those who bewilder us, those who make us angry, those who are alone and in danger of being overcome by their solitude, insecurity or rancor.  

Fear and hatred sit in the same seat.  In dimness they are impossible to discern, the one from the other.  Hatred is like a tri-fold mirror.   We look upon it thinking that we know which enemy is on the left, which is on the right, and we find ourselves seated righteously in the middle off all extremes.  Each version is a version of our own self.  It is the thing we fear the most about who we may have been in the past or who we might become, it is our most profound shame manifest.  In our fear we do not consider looking upon the face on the right or left  to recognize that it is much more similar to our own than it is different.  Without love or friendship the mirrors start closing in.  Our vision becomes blurred and our discernment becomes obfuscated both by and to our own hatred and obsessions.  We loose touch with what the offenses we perceive are being carried against us are.   We redouble our politics and abstract our principles.  Suddenly our face is unrecognizable against those of our enemies.  In the confusion we justify any measure it takes to expel or damage the "other"… including their measures, the ones we once found so fundamentally unjust.  Our minds, in blind preoccupation, cannot find a moment to bite down the chatter of fixation for silence or reflection.  Our faith becomes battered and fleeting and our hearts shrink under the weight of so much bitterness.  We become lost. 

Each time a life is lost because of hatred cowardice wins.  Not solely the cowardice of the individual dastardly enough to carry out the crimes, but also of the individuals whom avoided the opportunity of reaching out to someone who was in need, simply because it might be difficult.  Our politicians will not save us from the repercussions of crushing and furious hatred… they too are abstracted by fear of how such actions reflect on themselves and their ability to govern.  We must act on our own volition.

To the families whose children and loved ones perished on July 22, beyond offering my greatest condolences I promise to be kinder to those who need kindness.  I promise to guide those who live in shadows out of the darkness and into the light, this is how I honor the memories of the deceased.  This is how we can all honor them.  

*Ahimsa is a sanskrit term for non-violence.

Snatam Kaur and the Mothership

Not sure how often you have all been taking the time to look up lately, but the skies have been busy with movement.  It's one thing for us all to have our internal exploration and our astral exploration, but it's another thing completely to have a physical affirmation of what we know to be true.  I am talking about Spaceships people, and there's no getting around it. The most recent phenomenon that has been noted all over the world are these very large triangular Motherships.

I had been hearing about them for weeks and in astral travel have visited the learning centers as well as the communal center several times  ( think Battlestar Galactica but exponentially more elegant and ALIVE and way better lighting) but I have admittedly never seen anything of this magnitude in my waking hours on 3-D earth.  I am also one of these people who sees "UFOs" all of the time, maybe because I have my eyes open but mostly because I ask them to show themselves.  Also many kinds of starships have made themselves known to me.

The Mothership is different, it was a series of fortunate events that brought my eyes to the sky that night.  While at my Reiki Training there was also a Radiant Woman retreat taking place on campus.  It was a truly magical experience to share a space with so many woman looking to celebrate what it means to them to live in the radiance of their own womanhood.  The singer Snatam Kaur was one of the women enjoying the retreat and on Wednesday evening she put on a Kirtan concert on with her band and her mother.  I wasn't going to go.  I had said all week that I wasn't interested.  But after a swim in the lake and an edifying conversation with two over Reiki Masters I found myself in my tent doing Tarot about some things that had come up over lunch.  There I was getting a very clear message about what was spinning in my mind when I suddenly heard a voice tell me, "go to the concert tonight".  Now I know that many of you talk to your guides and angels, some of you also communicate with the ets and the interdimensionals, but in my experience no message has ever come across so clearly.

Now I must preface the climax of this story with the fact that I had been asking the Galactics for several weeks for a physical connection with Light Workers who are Starseeds and who are fully aware of their divine mission.  As soon as I sat down and Snatam began to speak I knew that my prayer had been answered.  She said, "You are a star, remember who you are, remember who you are, remember who you are, you're coming home."  At the end of that last word I went into a state of Samadhi* where I felt so connected with everything.  I took the opportunity to welcome all of the angelic realm, the fairy kingdom, the earth, our star brothers and sisters, the ascended masters and the saints, and all of the elementals, basically all beings of light to participate in this magnificent anchoring of grace.  It was so masterful of Snatam to recognize that through the profound connection to love she could (and was) change the vibration of the world, helping the earth along in her ascension.

Upon leaving the concert my friend and soul twin were walking along when she suddenly pointed up to the sky and said, "look, there's my friend".  I looked up and my heart went so still that I almost fell over.  Within the field of a star spangled sky, in the helix of the Milky Way, was one triangular shaped constellation that was completely blacked out in the middle.  We tried to rationalize what constellation it was, we are both skywatchers.  I began to feel my lips tingling.  I told her that it wasn't a constellation at all, that is was the mothership that everyone was whispering about.  Or one of them.  Here is where the story gets even more special to me... I hadn't told my friend, because I didn't feel it was appropriate yet, that she is and had been one of those individuals on aboard the ships with me from the beginning.  She was my classmate in "Night School" but is also my classmate at our yoga school with our Teacher.  We both understood and recognized the connection and there was an outpouring of gratitude toward life which I hope translates through this message and into each of your hearts.

I want to speak very quickly about making connections with Starships.  Firstly, we have nothing to fear because THEY are US and WE are THEM.  They also love us and support us tremendously and they are so earnestly excited to know more of us.  Back to the point... if you live in an area with light congestion this may be more difficult for you, although my friends and I have seen myriad ships in NYC, but if you live somewhere remote go outside at night (it is possible during the day too, FYI).  Ground yourself.  Get comfortable.  Pay attention to your breathing.  You may chose to go into a meditative state or not.  Be still in whatever you chose. Imagine that you could speak from the very center of your heart.  Imagine what that voice would sound like.  With a very clear intention ask that a ship make it's presence known to you.  Wait patiently, they will not come forth if they sense fear.  The vibration of fear is actually damaging to them.  Clear your mind, clear your energy.  Pay attention.  If you are ready, they will come. If you see something and can't believe it, or you just need more
"evidence", ask from that same voice of love for a sign.  Enjoy the lightshow!

Be the music!
Nicole

In case you haven't seen Snatam Kaur: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02in-sRkgNQ

The images were taken from different sources.

*Samadhi as defined by Wikepedia: a non-dualistic state of consciousness in which the consciousness of the experiencing subject becomes one with the experienced object,^[1] and in which the mind becomes still, one-pointed or concentrated^[2] while the person remains conscious

xx yy xy

Good Morning!  I hope you are all feeling absolutely yummy.  The topic for my post today is this very strong synthesis that I sense is arising between the masculine and feminine.  This is happening in three distinct ways as far as I can determine.  The first is a movement toward androgyny in a very popular sense.  The second is men and women actually releasing some of the old paradigm restrictions of what a relationship should look like.  And finally I am also picking up on this sort of reclaiming of the divine feminine and masculine in a very non-threatening and balanced way.

I first started notching the androgyny thing months ago.  Of course I live in New York City and people are allowed to be "out" here.  However I saw it on my travels to more remote regions of the US and it immediately caught my attention.  I see more and more women in men's clothing and more and more men in women's clothing than I have ever seen this lifetime. Especially among younger people.  I personally find this to be a very constructive and positive way of expressing aspects of the other sex in a creative, joyful, and explorative way.  And particularly for people who work at jobs that might cut them off a bit from creative expressing, why not let the fabric become a flight of fancy?

Another ascension phenomenon is the sudden dissolution of old relationships. We'll address that later.  In some cases, this is followed by an immediate desire to unite with an individual of the same sex.  I personally think that this is great, and the galactics tell us that elsewhere in the universe the concept of love is unbound both in terms of partners but also in the interaction with intimate partners.  There is no sense of ownership, although a committed partnership is highly revered and respected, and there is great freedom and joy to experience intimacy between two individuals.  I think this kind of exploration is an important aspect of our evolution in the sense that it provides us with an expanded awareness and acceptance on the possibilities of partnerships.  This seems to be happening for two reasons, people are definitely accepting more sexual freedom on a conscious level despite not knowing what is driving that freedom and other people are addressing a masculine or feminine deficit which requires attention.  Filling this deficit could be as simple finding a healing experience in union with members of the same sex.  How amazing that we are okay with taking what we need!

So many emerging groups are focused on the awakening of the divine feminine and the return of the goddess.  I agree that it is a very exciting time to experience female energy in such an empowered and yet accepting way.  What I think is equally important, however, is the reemerging of the divine masculine. A masculinity that is not competitive or threatened by sharing space or spirit with others.  I am certain that you have all been catching this vibe... yes?   It's only when we begin to break down the barriers of what interaction is appropriate between xx and yy or xy, that we will begin to experience very profound intimacy with members of the same or opposite sex, this intimacy can be sexual or not.  Your friendships and family relationships deepen and perhaps you will notice that what were once prominent tendencies in expressing the male or female aspect of ourselves are no longer necessary.  The whole point of evolution at the scale that we are dealing with right now is to find a balance between polarities or extremes.  While the idea of the fierce goddess certainly resonates with the part of my ego that has been repressed by the malian military industrial complex that has been imposed on all of our lives for far too long, my high heart sings the psalm of freedom from all of those old restrictions and rules.  Our earth is asking for balance and I invite you to listen and take action.  During my Reiki training I experienced the most beautiful example of this blossoming.  We were honored with a concert given my Snatam Kaur and so many different young men and women began dancing with joy. It was an ecstatic dancing that flowed outwardly and had no name or sense of self awareness.  I saw men dancing with men and women dancing with women.  Most pairs were straight and some were gay but they were all so obviously and genuinely happy.  What a delight!

I encourage you to share your story with the community and to take note of the rising energy.

Sat Nam!

Nicole

A thing called Love

Hi Beauties!

Reiki Master Training was AMAZING.  I have so many treats to share with you from my experience in the Attunement.  This is a quick post because I am physically and energetically wiped out from my beautiful week at summer camp :) and I want to be in a space with the new moon tonight.

I want to quickly touch on something that may not seem mystical on the surface but is actually one of the most mystical pursuits that you can follow on the path of mastery: LOVE.

I know that many of you are surfing the waves of energy that are flooding the earth right now, I also recognize that some of you are hurting and that some of you are confused.  I want to emphasize to all of you that our most important practice on this earth at this moment in human evolution is the practice of love.

Try and let yourself imagine love as a photograph.  As an object, a photograph is a simple flat plane on the outside but when you look into the photograph you sense more, a moment, a memory, an energy even.  Looking at the picture you may see people or a landscape, whatever it is you immediately recognize the dynamism of that photo- we understand that it captures the 3-dimensional world that we live in, moving the object from a one dimensional object to a 3-dimensional object or presence.  And then consider the fact that when we capture a photo we do so with the intent of extracting the memory of that moment we were alive in so there is suddenly another dimension, the dimension that we emote in.  The emotions are not something that can be seen on the surface, sometimes the emotion of the person capturing the photo is different than the beingness of the object captured.  This adds yet another dimension.  The dimension of the occupation of different possibilities coming from different experiences and different people.  The photo takes a new life.

Allow your path to love to exist on many dimensions.  Allow it to transform you, to guide you, to polish you and feed you.  Allow it to be honest with you and then allow it to hold you when the honesty hurts.  We are being given a most extraordinary opportunity to expand the way we understand love.  May it envelope you and my you shine it out onto others.

I love you all!

Nicole

Reiki Master Training

Hi Everyone!

Just a note to let you know that I will be at a training for the next week.  I will be camping and have decided to not bring my computer, so I am not sure that you will have another post from me until next Saturday.  I hope you enjoy your week and keep an eye on the skies.  We have been getting one crazy beautiful light show lately.

Be kind to yourself.

Love,
Nicole

Don't hit Snooze!

Hi, I hope everyone is doing very well.  August is a super charged month as we have an incredible meteor shower gracing the skies and pretty phenomenal solar flares showering us with energy and the power to transform.  All of these external occurrences can be observed as destabilizing to our energetic/emotional/physical selves, but they can also be welcomed as opportunities for activation and inspiration.

I have noticed though social media and overheard conversations that many individuals are connecting to their dream state at this time.  This is so significant and I can't stress enough how important the information flowing in through our dreams is to our personal and collective development.  Consider that when we dream we allow ourselves access to parts of our minds that remain guarded throughout our daytime activities.  We permit our minds to rest and replenish, in a sense we let go and become vulnerable to connect with a greater possibility of ourselves.  It can be intimidating and even threatening to others if you are someone who is constantly in connection with the many parts of your mind, your spirit, higher self and even source, so don't worry if you are guarded it is a kind of backward evolutionary response that is completely understandable.  Especially at the beginning of our awakening, when we don't yet feel grounded in our vulnerability or are overwhelmed at the expansiveness that we are, dreaming is one of the most informative practices we can relate to.   When we dream we are unbound, and eventually this translates to our waking lives as well but only when we are ready.

When I speak about awakening I am referring mostly to Starseeds* but I also speak to humanity as a whole.  We can take note of this in the amount of civil unrest in the world today.  The very paradigms that have been holding the overarching structures of the world together (by the skin of their teeth) are crumbling rapidly.  This is scary, but it's also a good thing.  As a people we are collectively identifying that things aren't working for the majority.  This identification is a perfect platform for us to work creatively on finding solutions that are not anchored in the old ways of thinking or operating, but to actually start anew.  Because why not?

Back to the snoozefest (ha!), there are many forces in the universe that are so encompassingly supportive of what we are undergoing as a civilization.  Having compassion toward yourself is paramount right now as all of the information coming in can be aggravated by the polarization matrix that we have been engendered to know as reality. I want to share a dream that I had several months ago that will further express this.  I know that many Starseeds are having similar downloads at night and it can be overwhelming unless you decide to be compassionate of yourself.

My dream began in Night School**, my classmates and I had been given a mission the week before to dismember a camera that was meant to take photographs and film of the dark side of the moon, supposedly to share with the public but who knows.  (This dream happened in January and it seemed to me that this mission occurred in what we know of as the past).  There was a celebratory air in our group that day and I remember that one of my teachers approached me about finally being able to meet my family.  I had been asking to connect with my star family for quite some time at this point, and even though I was certain that I had been doing so I wasn't ever letting myself remember their faces or our conversations. Toward the end of the "dream" I was led down a hallway by my teacher and as I was turning another hallway and and entering into a room when I flung my arms up around my face and screamed in terror of what I would see.  SHIT HAPPENS.  This is the sweet part... I was immediately taken into another dream where I was being chased by a very angry, somewhat rabid, giant baby gorilla.  It should have been terrifying being that this gorilla was out for my blood, but somehow I recognized that if this was a gorilla, something I am familiar with, I had the opportunity to outwit it.  I ran like crazy setting traps that would capture the gorilla and of course we all know that gorillas are smarties so it escaped all of them.  I finally found refuge in my neighbor's house from childhood (parallel timelines), this is another safe and familiar place for me.  We were all convening on one side of the house and on the opposite side, where the bedrooms are, there was a little baby crying.  For some reason the lights were out and the house was lit by candlelight and while everyone was speaking to one another I noticed that the baby was no longer crying. I peaked around the corner and against the far wall saw a shadow cast from the candlelight.  It was the baby gorilla who had found his way into the home, found the baby and taken him from his crib.  The gorilla began to approach the room where we were all sitting.  Everyone was terrified for the baby that was being held in his arms.  (My heart is literally racing as I write this because I remember the fear and intensity of the moment like it is unfolding now.)  I detached from my fear and gave myself the permission to connect with this gorilla by looking directly into its eyes, reading its body language and sensing its energy.  This is when I realized that the energy had shifted, not just his but mine as well.  By allowing myself to connect to this animal, who was a dangerous beast just mere moments before, I could sense that it had become completely disarmed by the child.  The beautiful, perfect and innocent child.  As it approached nearer the room behind me fell silent, I stood blocking the hallway and as if I were allowing something else to move through me I walked up to the gorilla (who was suddenly much smaller) and the baby and I wrapped them both in an embrace.  When I did this I felt an incredible sense of love not just flowing but surging through me and through them.  I felt acceptance.  I woke up immediately and recognized the overwhelming compassion that had been shown to me by taking me to this dream.

The gorilla was something quantifiable, the fear I experienced beforehand was really only fear of the unknown, but also a fear of somehow being a monster myself.  The gorilla was a monster in the beginning of the dream until it was overtaken by its own childlike innocence (ahem!!!) and once that happened I was able to relate to it without the slightest fear because I recognized myself in it (AHEM!!!) and more importantly that we are all alive with the same stuff.  Love stuff.  Life Stuff.

It took me a couple of days to stop feeling embarrassed about my fear of meeting my family.  But once the immenseness of  their generosity of spirit in that lesson came though, I was able to accept that I should treat myself (and others) in kind.  This is also a dream about the shadow aspects of ourselves, look how powerful we can become when we no longer feed our shadows but recognize them instead.

So the title of this post, don't hit snooze, stems from the idea that we should all continue to engage in the opportunities presenting themselves to us in our dreams rather than shut them off and relate to them "only as dreams".  The more we understand that our dreams open our minds to broader realities, the more we can garner information that will help us connect with our higher selves and our situations with more clarity and inspiration.  The world needs this right now.  Consider participating without fear of the outcome or fear of the journey.  None of it belongs to us anyway.

Happy Meteors, Meteors and People!

Love,
Nicole


For more information of Starseed awakening, and Starseeds in general, please read the link below.  I have recently had the pleasure of connecting with this amazing and beautiful Lightworker and am so excited to see where this connection will take us, and you.

*http://chakracenter.org/2012/08/09/why-are-so-many-starseeds-awakening-now/

**Night School is a place where many of us travel astrally during what is our resting state.  Whether we are bilocating or dreaming is up for personally interpretation but in my experience when I accepted this phenomenon as bilocation I was able to wake up and not feel exhausted anymore.  Before this realization I would wake up completely wiped out- like I literally had not slept and all I was doing was traveling for hours.  Anyhow, it is a situation whereby you travel in an astral state to a classroom setting where you are taught new technology, expanded science and physics, or how to access the spirit realms and even how to move through timelines.  And much more than this, to be honest.

Prophesies

Quick and unedited post:

Last night I awoke at 2:22 as I often do, after being asleep for a couple or a few hours.  To be exact, I wake up between 2-4am but most often 2:22 or 3:33.  Numbers are powerful, so this certainly has meaning but what I want to quickly talk about is the astral conversation that I was having before I awoke.

I have been practicing Astral Projection* since childhood, and though I shut it off after a traumatic** experience in my early 20s, this is one of the abilities that became reactivated through the doorway of sacred geometry.  Anyhow, back to the topic, I was sitting in communion with a Native American Chief.  I have gone to him many times in the Astral Realm though it only became apparent to me last night. Over a fire we spoke of a couple of things, one was the need for me to shield myself when traveling since anything that emanates light attracts attention, but the other more important aspect (for the sake of this post) was a prophecy his grandfather told him as a child.  Now, here is where it gets interesting, these were ancient times and from the tone of the conversation I was able to understand that his grandfather wasn't exactly human (I know, neither are we- but still).  That's beside the point.  Here is more or less what I got:

"The humans have been navigating through a darkness that they created, they were always completely unaware of their own power and yet they would decide to be doomed and become doomed, using the opportunity to blame one another and become more separate and create more doom in the shadow of separation.  They don't realize that it was always in their path to succeed (ascend***), they had decided in their souls that returning home was the only way, all of the rest was the illusion before deciding to return home.  But the depths of darkness, that was their attempt to enact another prophecy.  One that would never come to pass".

Take what you will from this message.  But please consider this message the next time you are reading or watching news that makes you believe that the world is going to pieces.  Ask yourself what makes you feel more clear in your own being, buying into situations that justify a need for separation or understanding that situations are a manifestation of life expressing itself within us, not by what we are experiencing but how we chose to experience it.  We are powerful co-creators, it's time that we consider allowing ourselves the distance to recognize that we belong to peace, and that kicking or screaming peace is where we are heading.  It is what we are.

Thank you to the beautiful and loving guide who shared this message with me last night, I love you.

Have a beautiful and peaceful day, everyone!

Hari Om,
Nicole

*Astral projection (or astral travel) is an interpretation of out-of-body experience (OBE) that assumes the existence of an "astral body" separate from the physical body and capable of traveling outside it.^[1] Astral projection or travel denotes the astral body leaving the physical body to travel in the astral plane.

The idea of astral travel is rooted in common worldwide religious accounts of the afterlife^[2] in which the consciousness' or soul's journey or "ascent" is described in such terms as "an...out-of body experience, wherein the spiritual traveller leaves the physical body and travels in his/her subtle body (or dreambody or astral body) into ‘higher’ realms."^[3] It is therefore associated with near death experiences and is also frequently reported as spontaneously experienced in association with sleep and dreams, illness,^[4] surgical operations, drug experiences, sleep paralysis and forms of meditation.^[5]

It is sometimes attempted out of curiosity,^[6] or may be believed to be necessary to, or the result of, some forms of spiritual practice.^[7] It may involve "travel to higher realms" called astral planes but is commonly used to describe any sensation of being "out of the body"^[8] in the everyday world, even seeing one's body from outside or above. It may be reported in the form of an apparitional experience, a supposed encounter with a doppelgänger, some living person also seen somewhere else at the same time.^[9]

**Traumatic Travel Experience:  When you are out there in the ether you aren't always protected, please be sure that you take the time to call upon your guides and angels, and even your ancestors to cloak you from any entities looking to attach to you.  Sometimes when entities attach they are may not even realize it. When we have Karmic issues to work out, we will definitely float around (even in between lives) until we have settled them and unfortunately we may accidentally cling to spirits as they are doing their work.  It's not always malicious.  The other side of that is that when you are traveling through the astral realm there are entities that want to attach and that are capable of and intending to cause harm.  Unfortunately this exists, but you CAN protect yourself by declaring that you are love and you will not accept any unwanted attachments that are not for the greatest good of all.  In fact I encourage any of you who are doing work with spirits, ets, interdimensionals, etc to make a declaration that you will only communicate with beings of light whose intentions are to serve the divine law.  In doing this you are going to block and negative or mischievous entities from making contact and leading you to believe that you are working with positive entities.  This is very important, a dear friend of mine has just learned that her energy was being syphoned by a being that she thought to be serving the light but was actually connecting her to a dark entity.  People don't realize this, but this is where the whole demonic possession, poltergeist theory comes from.  It's a beautiful multiverse out there which gives you all the more reason to be that beauty and shield yourself.  More information here: http://www.radioastrology.com/TFG/AstrProj.htm

***1987 was a momentous year that marked the beginning of humanity’s ascension, rebirth and shift into the Fourth Dimension. 1987’s Harmonic Convergence also marked the beginning of our sun’s direct alignment with the center of our Milky Way Galaxy. This very rare cosmic event has been exposing our whole solar system to intense rounds of “torsion wave” energy. Many believe this newly discovered energy source emanating from Galactic Center is activating our DNA and setting in motion The Great Shift long prophesied by many indigenous traditions, including the Mayan, Incan, Hopi and Vedic. Mayan timekeepers records indicate that 2012 marks the close of several large cycles of time: a 26,000 year Mayan Calendar cycle, a 78,000 year Earth cycle, a 26 million year Earth cycle and the 225 million Galactic Year. The simultaneous close of these cycles in 2012 is like the odometer turning over for the entire history of our galaxy, and perhaps the whole cosmos. It is a moment when humanity, Planet Earth, the Milky Way Galaxy and perhaps all of creation is expected to take a simultaneous leap in evolution.

Sacred Geometry

When my grandmother passed away in November I immediately began to see in vast fields of geometry almost every time I closed my eyes.  This was quite startling to me since the patterns where both very clear and they occurred while I was still fully awake.  My teacher has referred to this visual light geometric pattern as Jyoti.  He has also encouraged us to not connect too much with the light we see and in the context that he advises this, meditation, it does make perfect sense.  However I was seldom meditating when these visions came up.  As I would close my eyes I became encapsulated in a  geometric web that seemed to stretch out into infinity.  Looking at it had a penetrating effect on me and over time I began to feel activated by it.  It was helping me to remember. At one point I decided to approach the field in front of me and as I got closer to it I decided to move through it.  When I did this the web actually undid itself to allow me to pass and re-linked itself once I did so.

Though I will not go into detail at this time on the myriad changes that have come to pass because of this journeying, I will say this:  I believe that these patterns of geometry are directly linked to sound, and that the amalgam of these two sources is instrumental to our past, current and future creation.  We can see evidence of this geometry when we observe particles under a microscope, we notice patterns repeating themselves in each manifestation of physical life.  Tree branches, lightning bolts, blood vessels, plant roots...  It turns out that I am not the only person that believes this, as knowledge of sacred geometry has long been used in circles of mysticism around the world, and is certainly very much alive today among similar groups. What is unprecedented, however, is that science is finally beginning to catch up with the possibility that this phenomenon can shape our reality.  There is plenty of literature surrounding sacred geometry and I encourage you to look into this more if it resonates with you.

This is a very small example of the first geometry I saw during my awakening, oddly when I told my husband what was happening to me he saw this same symbol in his mind.:

I have noticed that within the last several months this particular geometry has been used in several advertising campaigns and window displays throughout New York City.  We can each draw our own conclusion as to why this is occurring, but I suspect it has much to do with activation.

Here are a few videos that explain the concept of sound frequencies and reality in terms of physics, philosophy and spirituality, and one that actually shows an example of cymatics at work:

http://bigthink.com/ideas/26653

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D6jhtN-53tE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFRtjZ3NrqM

Synchronicity & Crystals

This post is a bit more personal than the previous posts because it concerns a reoccurring phenomenon that has been happening to me recently.  Synchronicity.  There have been certain times throughout my life where the level of synchronicity is certainly more active than other times and I have generally accepted this gift of "coincidence" as being in a place where I am flowing with the universe rather than struggling against the movement.  In fact, a friend and great teacher of mine once said (in regards to developing a yoga practice) "you get to a place where you realize that you aren't actually doing the yoga, it's already happening and you're moving with what is happening" It's where the magic happens.  Not sure if that is what she said verbatim, as this is a while ago now, but you get the gist of it.

I began to work with crystals a little over a year ago and reticently so.  I was aware of their incredible power and understood that it was perhaps not the best thing for me to delve into until I found more stability in my life.  I recall the one crystal I was working with quite a lot during this time, it's an amethyst geode pendant that I wore around my neck.  I chose this crystal intuitively and found myself wearing it during very energetically charged situations.  Being an empath I am often confronted with  copious amounts of energy that people around me need to shed. I recognize that listening and supporting them is actually an integral aspect of my soul contract and feel honored to participate in such an empowering and vulnerable expression of humanness.  It's cool! :) However there are times, particularly prior to understanding the magnitude of my work here on earth, that I found myself feeling drained or literally having absorbed their debris.  Working with Amethyst was transformational.  It literally protected me. I learned later on that in many circles Amethyst is known a powerful protective stone and that it guards against psychic attacks (we will address this issue in another post as I am certain we have all experienced both ends of this- it is often being done subconsciously) and transmutes negative energies into love.  Sweet right?  I think so.

Anyhow after a particularly heady day of emotions I met with a sweet couple at a bar to catch up.  I was still wearing my necklace though the weight of it was literally causing my shoulders and neck to tense up.  *Clean and Charge your stones! Like a moth to the flame my girlfriend's boyfriend reached out and touched the amethyst literally jerking his hand away like he had just been burned.  His eyes opened very widely and he remarked on how hot the stone was.  This was a great reminder for me to take it off, but also a good example of how THESE THINGS WORK.

As I mentioned in the first posting I do some work with Reiki.  I have now been attuned to first and second degree Reiki and will be attuned to the Master levels in a couple of weeks.  Reiki is an incredible gift but also a huge responsibility.  There isn't any particular way to direct this intelligence as it moves through you unbound and delivers itself to exactly where it knows it needs to go.  Powerful stuff that will affect your understanding of things like time and space simply by being present in your body.  After a self treatment a few weeks ago I found myself in an interesting place.  At night, which is not always my "sleep" time for me but a time that I use for bilocation**, I traveled to a field where upon landing there I was overwhelmed by the familiar smell of grass and earth.  I took a moment to close my eyes and become intoxicated by the richness of the scents and the grounding effect they provided.  Upon opening my eyes I found that I was standing beneath a giant geode in a space that was full of similar structures.  They were all different stones and as such carried their unique properties.  Being here was a profound gift to me, both that I was welcomed here by the earth but also that I was willing to accept the opportunity.  It was uncanny how at home I felt in this place, as I walked through the tunnels and formations I felt a pure sense of healing and attunenment pulsating through my being from and to the vibrations of the crystals.  I also sensed that my own abilities where being amplified by these intelligent stones.  An intuition that has been validated several times of late including this morning, the reason why I am writing this post.

In speaking with friends lately I have mentioned the memory of this place and told them of my certainty of its existence.  Perhaps not on this dimension I say, perhaps not on this planet, perhaps not even in this timeline, but it is real.  I have also mentioned that I would like so badly to know more about this memory, to meet or find or manifest others with similar memories.  Et Voila...  this morning when visiting another Lightworker's page I found this... http://www.charismelina.com/blissing-out-on-mount-shasta.html.  Which brings to question the power of crystals to harness synchronicity and manifestation in your life.  Of course, we already do possess this ability without having to look to outside sources but the stones will actually magnify our intentions.  To read more about the use of stones and their effects on wavelengths click here: http://www.enotes.com/quartz-reference/quartz.

Unfortunately the use of crystals has been adopted in injurious ways as well, and though I am certain that there are many ways to deflect these modalities it is important to educate yourself: http://rense.com/general74/mindcontrol.htm

Please share about your own experience with Crystals and Synchronicity or Manifestation.

Big Love,
Nicole


*Cleaning your stones can happen in a saltwater bath, sea salt + purified water, in a smudge session and in burying them under earth.  (I am sure there are other ways not mentioned here.)
*Charging your stones can be charged by leaving them in a windowsill where they will absorb sunlight ( be aware that certain stones will fade in color if left in light too long, and color has potent vibrations to add), taking them to the ocean and wetting them, taking them to nature and allowing them to sit for a while.

**Bilocation, or sometimes multilocation, is a term used to describe the ability/instances in which an individual or object is said to be, or appears to be, located in two distinct places at the same instant in time.^[1][2][3][4] The term has been used in a wide range of historical and philosophical systems, including early Greek philosophy,^[5][6][7][8] shamanism,^{[5][6][7][8][9][10][11]} paganism,^[11] folklore,^[8][12] occultism and magic,^[13][14][15] the paranormal,^[16][17][18] Hinduism (as one of thesiddhis),^{[5][6][19][20]} Buddhism,^[21][22] spiritualism, Theosophy,^[10][15] the New Age^[23][24][25] and mysticism in general,^[26] as well as Christian mysticism^[6][27] andJewish mysticism.^{[28] (Thankyouverymuch, Wikepedia)}