Choose Your Own Adventure

Hi Everyone,

I hope you are all well. We survived the storm here in Brooklyn and are getting ready for another quiet day off. I am going to post some more later but I wanted to share a message that I just received with you. Many of you know that I work with the Archangels a lot. I also work with my guides and the Ascended Masters and sometimes with the Galactics and Elementals... the usual- and it's available to all of us if-we-just-ask. This is the basis of my message to you right now. Ask for help but also be prepared to receive it. We live in a world of possibility and so much of what we allow ourselves to do is what we are told we can do. Few of us really think to venture outside of the rule program and create new possibilities, fewer of us think to do this with any serious conviction.

So here goes: Tell yourself you can do it, believe you can do it... be grateful that it's done. Watch as the miracles of your own manifestation unfold.

I am not saying that you are going to manifest a million dollars in your bank account, where we're going we won't need money anyhow. Money is an abstract concept meant to keep us in the frequency of the 3rd dimension and the polarity matrix.  Start small... ask for signs and ask for your heart to be humbled and receptive to the gifts that you have created so that you can RECOGNIZE THE MIRACLES before you. LOL.

Love yourself and be super kind to one another.

More later,
Nicole

The Water is Alive

Storms are amazing, it seems like a very apt time to share with you the message I received about water just an hour or so ago.  Water is a living and sentient being, not just an elemental force but an actual being just as any of us are.  I read this morning that the Masters came to earth to help clear the gulf oil spill.

Many of my friends and I have received messages about water. Sometimes performing healing in the water and sometimes given strategies to perform those healing and sometimes being taught to understand the true nature of water.

It wasn't until this morning that these messages became very clear to me. It certainly begs the question of how and why the powers that be have long practiced an incredible disregard for the ocean and marine life. It seems like an almost deliberate poisoning of our most precious resource. The fleecing of the ocean being dealt out by the same individuals who have guarded ancient knowledge and used it against the majority of humanity and the earth herself, this is no exception.

A few weeks ago as I was riding the train into work I received an intuition that trees are more complex than we understand.  That actually trees are an alien race that traveled from a distant galaxy to come to earth and protect earth and us in the battle that would take place between what people like to dramatize as a battle between dark and light.  God exists everywhere, everywhere. And especially in the darkness- perhaps that is where God is most present.

Anyway I got the sense that the trees, who normally take thousands of years to grow are literally being supported by the elemental forces and celestials to grow as rapidly as possible in order to balance out the climatization of the earth atmosphere (aura) (yet another target- with the depletion of the ozone layer) so that we can continue to breathe and that the earth can continue to breathe as well. It's a wonder that trees are also a major target on the hit list of industrial production... are we noticing a pattern?

The interesting thing about the ocean is that so much of marine life is thought to have also originated on other planets- this time in our very galaxy.

The other part of this download is that the living waters have even acted as a major influence and presence in the genetic experiment of human beings. Which is why our body is 80% water. I am still working with this download but I will certainly share more as it come in.

Stay safe to all of my friends in the Northeast.  Charge your crystals!

Love,
Nicole

Brilliant Colors

Good Morning!

I am sitting in my apartment in Brooklyn with the windows cracked listening to music and enjoying the crisp Autumn air.  Tomorrow we are supposed to be hit by a major storm, some call it the "Frankenstorm", and to be quite honest I am very happy for it.  I have been calling this storm for a couple of weeks, nice to know that it's finally picking up.

We don't understand human life.  There was a point in time in this blog where I wouldn't have outright made statements such as these, but the circumstances have changed and I have been called into more direct action. The more of us who are awake and aware right now, the better. The more that we can help others awaken from their sedated sleep program, the better.

We are taught to fear death from the moment we are old enough to have the capacity to learn fear.  Note that a child is not born into this world with the emotion of fear present in its emotional lexicon.  The child learns fear through observation, a concerned parent overreacting to what could have been a potential accident for the child- perhaps.

It's okay to die. Before we are born we are fully cognizant of more or less the life we will have and when we will have the opportunity to leave that life. It's more of a conscious decision than a sign on the dotted line dynamic... What's less of a decision is how we leave, which is why tragic deaths are so jarring to most people. Somewhere in our minds we know that what we in essence are lives forever... so not remembering that we sub or unconsciously remember this fact, totally blows our minds when we lose someone.

What aggravates our fear of death is the fear of death programming that is engendered to us through popular media, art, books and music.  Oh, and religion.  Religiosity is one of the cardinal offenders in the fear of death programming... not only is the scope of your life something beyond your control, but what happens in the afterlife- or worse, there IS NO afterlife, is completely not up to us to direct. Maybe we can even be punished for the ignorance we lived with.  What a load of lies that make us feel helpless and insignificant.

We can control things. We can change things. We can chose our own adventure.

So cycling back to the Hurricane Sandy, someone told me that 27 people in the Caribbean have died in association with this hurricane. I am not going to lie, that is sad. It is sad when we people leave this physicality, but they don't actually leave us. They move to a place that is everywhere and beyond our comprehension and reasoning when working within the 3 dimensional mind matrix.  This begins to change as you develop your intuition more and more and you open yourself to a spiritual life. You are going in that direction anyway and it's where we will all end up, so just know that it is available for you beginning NOW. A Spiritual life opens up the context on a lot of situations. Your experiences suddenly become less of a huge deal, not that you don't trip up, stop having bad days of freak outs or stop feeling. But usually when you interact with those emotions it becomes easier to let them go, after all in the grand scale of things none of it belongs to you truly so there is absolutely no reason to hold onto it. So yes, we must send love and compassion to the families and friends who have lost their loved ones, but we must also move on and understand this in the larger sense. Moments of intense emotion usually serve to remind us that we are alive, of the delicate nature of humanness, of the fleeting and lovely and delightful nature of existing in this reality where we are capable of feeling so many gifts, even our own sadness or loss. It means we love.

Most of you know that I am no stranger to chaos. Chaos as an extension of the cyclical nature of life. Something that must be destroyed to make room for something else can come to pass, to remind us that life in this multiverse is not static. Nature teaches this to us all of the time. If I look out of my window I can presently see the suicide of leaves from tree branches. It's fall. They will grow back, slightly differently- but with the same innate perfection, in the spring.

Both spring and fall are replete with brilliant colors. This is why there is an upwelling of emotion in our human language to describe the arrival of these two seasons. We understand* the significance of death and rebirth as a passage of life. Moreover, I intuit that the brilliant colors of these seasons activate us on a subconscious level to remember the divine vibrancy of life in the cosmos where even the blackness of space reverberates with the prismatic harmonics of love its completeness.

Lately I have been expressing to some friends and teachers that my experience of earth is shifting. Also, that my experience of people is shifting. There are moments when I am walking down the street and I don't feel like it is anywhere that I have ever been before. Everything seems healthier and more vibrant. The people seem more joyful and complete.  What does this mean? I suspect it means that in some ways I have ascended already. That I am seeing through the veils of reality and am no longer bound by what is available in the third dimension. But I am back and forth. Clearly I want to be in the 3rd dimension and I have work to do here that I signed up for.

Because I am negotiating how to keep my life in balance right now I haven't been writing to you all as much as I should or even want to. In fact, I have full on been ignoring some of the downloads I have been getting about messages I should share because I am so worn out at the end of the day. Ignoring these messages is completely counter intuitive since the result of ignoring my downloads is a night full of tossing and turning and not sleeping a wink. Suffice it to say I have learned my lesson.

Anyhow I had a download this week regarding an earlier download that I shared with you all about how in order to change the world and your own vibrations and understanding of the world, that you must begin living in your idea of the perfect world. Anchoring that divinity in the center of your heart and living in the gratitude of its existence. What this does as a practice is that it opens your perception to an expanded reality and understanding of dimensions: read you open a portal within yourself by practicing this sacred gratitude that allows you to travel within dimensions and possibilities. Including the 5th dimension, including 5th dimensional earth through the activation of your fifth dimensional self. In activation I mean, realization- since this 5th dimensional self has always existed and is not bound by these same space/time matrix that we experience in 3-D reality, all you are doing is recognizing that it is there.

The most astounding part of visiting 5-D earth is the brilliant colors. Today I heard an astronaut speak about watching the sunrise on earth from space. He said that he was absolutely dazzled by the spectrum and quality of greens and blues and pastel unlike he'd ever seen.

In a few weeks I intend on holding an event that will help us all activate the 5th dimensional self and tap into the 5-dimnisional earth space. As always, ask for help when you are doing this. We live in a world that is completely abundant with all forms of life, and especially now as we gather steam toward this transition- there are beings just waiting for us to ask for help. My suggestion is to tap into the Lemurian and Atlantean energy as well as the assistance of your particular guides or guardian angels.  The celestials are also available and so knowledgable as ever, the elementals. We live in a magical world, know that in your heart and go to it.

Travel in gratitude.

I love you,
Nicole

The Three Journeys

Several weeks ago, I attended my first Shamanic Circle in New York City.  It came to my attention that I had been practicing shamanism in various forms practically my entire life.  For example, to deal with some of the tension I am facing in my current circumstances, I have made an almost daily practice of dancing.  Dancing my heart out.  Dancing my spirit. Dancing until it feels that I have become liberated  and completely untethered.

Dancing is actually a key Shamanic Practice.  It is used to dispel energy, to gather energy and as an offering to the great spirit and the four directions.  The Shaman Circle was wonderful.  There were so many different kinds of people there.  I felt immense gratitude for the greatness and diversity of the group and for the key Shamans who held the space for us all to safely journey through the looking glass.

We were given three journeys that night.  The first journey was to find our spirit animal and ask it to take us to the place where all of energy is created.  The second was invite our spirit animal to show us what is holding us back from fully experiencing our joy. And the last was to journey with the Dolphins.

Each of my journeys was a miraculous gift of knowing myself.  My sense indicates that I cannot share the first two journeys with you but I would like to share the third.

In my third journey I found myself in Central America.  In one of those muddy, reddish rivers where the dolphins are white.  I became very confused at the sight of this and was quickly carried out to sea. I was floating, completely alone, in a very large body of water.  I was not above myself seeing down, nor was I below myself seeing up.  I was rather in front of myself and inside of myself at the same time.  All of the sudden, to the right of me a GIANT dolphin emerged.  This dolphin was the size of a blue whale.  I felt so small.  It began to sing in that very beautiful and conversational way that dolphins do.  As it sang the vibration of the sound moved throughout my body like lightwaves, creating a pleasurable and ticklish feeling.  It sang like this for a minute or so until it finally let out it's final sound. Upon emitting that noise the noise itself transformed into 12 dolphins that encircled me.  As they encircled me they began to use their flippers in a very forceful circular pattern, literally creating a beat with their flippers that was directed at me from all directions at once.  This had the effect of a very high pressure massage but it was made of the element of air.  It was somewhat pailful but I suspect the pain related more to the realization of the separation I had felt from the dolphins to that point.  At some point the dolphins decided to use the same methods but with there tales.  Flapping their tales in a synchronized way and surrounding me with the incredible air energy.  It felt like freedom.  Our interaction continued like this for another few moments until I reached such a pitch of joy that I literally burst out of my human body and became a dolphin.  When I became a dolphin I noticed that I had split into a smaller pod of dolphins and we were happily swimming together through warm, clear waters jumping and bounding.  It felt absolutely wonderful.

At one point while jumping I realized that we were very close to a shoreline where I could see the bodies of four individuals.  I looked at the sky and their were shooting stars all over the place.  It was beautiful.  My pod and I drew closer and closer to the shoreline until I realized that upon that shoreline, I was looking at my 19 year old self.  And in fact, I was.

When I was 19, my friend and our two boyfriends went and camped out on the Sanibel Causeway during a meteor shower.  It was incredibly beautiful.  As the sun was rising and everyone else was falling asleep, I stayed up to watch the sky become full of the vibrant pinks and oranges and purples of the Gulf Coast.  I could still see meteor zipping across the sky. And as I thought I might doze off, the most incredible thing happened.  A pod of dolphins approached the shore by where we were sleeping and began jumping out of the water.  An immense gratitude washed over me and brought tears to my eyes.  I felt that I was receiving a spectacular spiritual gift.  I felt so drawn to those dolphins and that they loved me.

A similar wave of gratitude overcame me during that last journey.  To see my self come full circle as a being willing to explore so many expression of creation and love... I am getting to know myself better each and every day.

Be kind on your journeys,
Nicole

Stillness

In Mayan, the term In Lak'ech Ala'Kin is a greeting of great love which translates to "I am another yourself," or "I am you, you are me."

So much of our conflicts come from the program of feeling separated from one another. On a cellular level we hold the memory of oneness.  On the outset, we don't even have to go so far as to speak about this identification in a spiritual way. If we look at human history, that which has been made available to us anyway, there is a pattern of trust and banding together in order to survive.  If primitive man was really as "primitive" as we've been lead to believe, then it is easy to understand why creating mutual partnerships that are based on trusting someone with your life would become advantageous.

In our advanced technological setting of the west, where so many of our needs are met and overmet, our communities have become disbanded. We have been made to become dizzyingly separated...to the point where you could be sitting in a room with someone you love and rather than join them, look at them or speak with them- you both spend time relating more to your electronic devices... the alienation agenda is incredibly pervasive.  The program of our educational system, societal structure and gender roles require us to assume a position in life as an individual that needs to stand firmly on their own two legs in order to be successful.  While there are certainly some variations of this programming to chose from, it isn't widely accepted when you veer too far from the predestined pathways.  Independence of spirit is threatening, while autonomy of state is widely celebrated.

We hurt one another needlessly and are hurt superfluously because we have been made to forget that at our best, we are one.  In our deepest form of independence the unity of spirit, of functioning individually as part of a greater whole, becomes the resounding truth. Over several millennia, we have become disjointed.  Loosing the most valuable asset we could ever possess... knowing that we can trust one another as we trust ourselves because In Lak'ech Ala'Kin.

Trusting is a spiritual practice of stillness, it will deliver you to peace.  You will end up there anyway. Make it easier on yourself.

Be loved,
Nicole

Death, Divorce and Dragons

It has been a while since I have had the mind to write and a lot in my life has changed.  Without outright speaking about it last month, I mentioned that I was definitely having some heart/love problems arise.  The result of that conflict is a mutual separation between my very amazing, loving husband and me.  I was warned throughout the different passes in my Reiki journey that holding Reiki energy would literally elevate my frequency resulting in both subtle and stark changes in the way that I interact with life.  I have spoken before about the changes that I have made to my diet and even music and friends, and I suppose that following the same logic the inevitability of my divorce was obvious.  That being said it isn't without sadness that I proceed in my life.  I have spent the last 4 & 1/2 years with the most supportive, intelligent and generous man I have ever known and I hope that now that we are releasing some of the tension between us that I get to spend the rest of my life knowing him as a dear friend.  Having trust that the universe knows, that the universe provides and that I am listening, and therefore being supported through this time, has been a very stabilizing force.

Another reason I have been away is that I have been observing the passing of my grandmother.  That experience was very interesting.  For the week before I even "knew" that here life was dwindling I felt her walking with me.  I found myself suddenly thinking about her, revisiting memories.  I heard music in my mind, music of my childhood... the same music that would play during her funeral.  I even heard phrases like, "In my father's house there are many mansions." Words that would be spoken by a priest only hours later at her service.  The most amazing part about the passing of my grandmother was her joy.  While outwardly and third dimensionally she appeared to be in a lot of pain, her spirit self, her true self was so completely at ease and in joy.  The day that I was told that my grandmother was in very poor condition, I decided to do an earth meditation.  I have spoken about other meditations before but one of my absolute favorite meditations is the earth meditation.  Being welcomed my the earth and merging your energetic field with hers is one of the most profoundly peaceful and ecstatic experiences that I have come to know.

As you are probably familiar with by now, I begin all of my meditations with pranayama and kriya techniques as imparted to me by my wonderful teachers at ISHTA.  I save ISHTA meditation for ISHTA and let my intuition guide me to what will feed me and sustain me when I am meditating on my own.  This is what brought me to the earth meditation.  After balancing my breath and open my chakras I begin to call out to the earth.  I call to her as though she is an old friend, I ask her to forgive the ignorance of my people, I tell her that I love her, I ask her to know my heart and to let me in.  I ask to connect the the very center of her.  (By the way, whether or not the earth is hollow or not does not detract from the fact that the earth has a center, that on an energetic level she is a living, breathing being with the same energetic principles as human beings but on a much large scale).  When I sense that I am synching with the earth a sort of rebounding occurs, as though every outpouring of love I am offering her is bouncing back to me but amplified and much more completely.  Looping back to my grandmother I had a particularly interesting experience with the earth that day.  After calibrating I summoned both my guides and the guides of my grandmother, it seemed that my grandmother was in a happy place, so that was a relief.  The message that her guides gave me that was pertinent to this dimension, was that she would wait for my dad to get there but that she wouldn't make it more than 20 or so hours.  After I finished my meditation and grounding I decided to give a call to my dad.  He sounded so anxious when he answered the phone.  He was driving to the airport and I could feel his worry that he's miss his mom.  I consulted my guides again and asked my dad if he wanted to hear the message I had received from them, he agreed.

He arrived in Puerto Rico at 10pm and was taken straight to the hospital where he was able to spend the night, and the rest of his mother's life, with her until morning when she left.  He was so relieved.  I luckily had the support of the most giving and loving Reiki Masters sending Reiki to the transition of my grandmother, but also to the situation of death that my family would be facing.  I don't observe death with the same gravity that most people do.  I also don't observe life with the same gravity that most people do.  There was a time in the not-so-distant past that I would not be able to say either of those statements with any truth.  We have to be okay with death.  We have to acknowledge death as a part of life.  It is death, impermanence, that makes each moment that we live so valuable, beautiful and fleeting.  We get caught up in programming, in expectation, in our own drive.  We think we are in control when what we are actually doing is blocking creation, our salvation from this is surrender. Surrendering the ideas, the programs, expectations, surrendering our very lives and dancing with spirit. None of this belongs to us and yet we are taught that things/people/places belong to us.  We are taught to think for the future, to works toward forever.  What a con.  We are already in the future from a moment ago, we are already eternal.  The more we fear death, that we resist loosing things/people/places the more we will succumb to the illusion of pain, the fear of the inevitable... but when we can surrender suddenly everything becomes a beautiful music.  Not the kind of song that you have to play on repeat because you can't get enough of it, but the kind that keeps getting better the more you listen.

Dancing has been a big part of my life in recent months as well.  I like to call my dance parties "Joy Raves"  because I always end of feeling fantastic afterward.  It is amazing how simple movement has a way of unlocking our connection to our physicality.  Our physicality is pretty spectacular, and yes while I do think that people get overly attached and fixated to their meat suits, I also find our meat suits to be a wonderful gift and toy... certainly one we should play with it as often as possible.

Apparently dancing, especially rhythmic and ecstatic dancing is one of the quickest ways to attract dragons.  Dragons love the energy of shakti.  They feed on it and return it to us.  In one of my former blog posts I shared about my experience in working with a large black dragon as my Reiki teaching guide.  Well this dragon, whose name has only become evident to me recently, is also my spirit animal. We will discuss dragons as spirit animals in another post, but I will tell you this... I have learned that black dragons are chaos dragons, that the larger they are (this one is seriously big) the older they are, and that black dragons are traditionally more female (up for debate, but whateves).  Dragon energy is amazing and unbridled.  The first time I met my dragon friend I was certainly needing to remind my heart to be calm.

The thing is, which I find interesting, is that I haven't been able to find this dragon since the death of my gram other and the decision to separate from my husband.  Dragons push us to be more honest with ourselves and to destroy (especially chaos dragons) anything that is preventing us from being fully realized, they revel in this energy because elementally it is the energy of movement, but they are also wise when it comes to helping focus your life with all of its new pieces.  In its place, however, has come a small white dragon, a water dragon.  Very healing, young (by dragon standards) and playful. I have also learned that dragons are purely interdimensional beings, that they are the bridge between life and death, which makes sense to me since I have often found myself skirting lines that would make most people squirm. Interesting stuff that I am still navigating and since I want to be as clear as possible about what I share with you all, I am going to hold off on exploring this more until I am more grounded.

I will write you more tonight or tomorrow.

Namaste,
Nicole